Going crazy.Lol

I cope by not keeping it at the center of my focus. I keep my mind busy in a number of other different ways. I don't watch the TV news whose only purpose, imho, is to incite fear and the purpose of fear is to claim more fear. Long story short, I am in a good place emotionally as long as I keep in touch with my Higher Power daily. It's that relationship that keeps me centered and focused on the important things in my life.

God Bless

I was not coping very well in the beginning of outbreak. I had regressed quite a bit.

Having this site to reach out to, has helped me rebalance and put things in better perspective. I am now 28 days sober, and have no desire to check out through a bottle.

I have to admit though, it has been very helpful to also be able to stay at home....no stressful engagements with other people...and I’ve been able to reflect on who are the toxic people in my life, and what events have been triggers.

The virus has given me permission to not engage in them anymore. This is one aspect I don’t want to change. As the province is opening up, the invites are starting to roll in. I think I will just come out and let people know my goals and would appreciate if they can honour my wishes....otherwise, I won’t be able to attend.....any thoughts on this approach?

Catching up on the chores and reading (and re-reading) my AA Big Book. I'm barreling towards 60 days sober after many years of very hard drinking that should have killed me. I still think about drinking (I do miss the high) but I know that touching it again will only be another downhill tumble (think of the Wide World of Sports - Agony of Defeat clip). Don't want to have to dry out again. Did it on my own and it certainly wasn't fun. Stay strong, everyone; one day at a time!!!

I had my children home from school. We wrapped up the year yesterday. Because all of their sports were cancelled, I had them outdoors just about daily since March. The parks were never closed here. It was still the dead of winter, and we were mostly alone because people are afraid of the cold. I've been praying the Rosary, overeating (lol), and started exercising with some videos on YouTube. I'm on social media, but mostly with old female friends over 40 who post inspirational comments or family/community news. Although there are a few Karens. I read only headlines to keep abreast of things. I admit I'm disturbed. But if hard times are coming, I will face them sober. I pray for everyone, everywhere. Some people I know are afraid of dying during the pandemic, others think it's all a conspiracy. I just listen. Everyone has a different way of thinking. We are planning on maybe going to a neighboring province for a getaway over the summer. I want to keep the summer as good as possible for my children. I've been thinking of things to do with them around the city to keep them happy and occupied.

Nice replies. Daisy I think that is the right approach. I had to separate people into two groups early in recovery, the ones who supported me improving my life and the ones who didn't see it as that important.

The ones who didn't see me drinking as a problem and welcomed the idea of me no longer doing it, I had to spend more time with and didn't mind being around, but the ones who didn't seem to care that I wanted to stop drinking and change, I stopped willfully gathering with and just accepted they probably were and always will be more interested in their own interest above mine, and that was ok, because it was a good reason to not be around them any longer or be influenced by them.

As time grew on, I changed, and they didn't. It was part of the process. I think being honest but more so being honest with your higher power about helping you cut off negative influences and furthering your appreciation for positive supportive people who want your success is key.

At about three years sober I woke up one day and realized I was in a life where far too many people could have cared less about me, and I slowly started to disengage with them, and my life got much better.

The disengagement opened up a vacuum for some really positive and non-threatening individuals to enter, and it has allowed for much more fulfillment and meaningful interactions if that makes sense, but it took time, and I needed to continually be working on myself and staying committed to the process for it all to unfold I believe that way it did, and still does.