welcome.....I hope this helps....it can be done but you have to smash the delusions that you can drink again....and that your different from others.....find a way to stay sober outside of yourself.....call it what you want the power is there....you just have to find it....

It helps to keep a daily journal of your recovery. Put everything down. That's what helps alot of us....Don't worry about anyone judging you because they won't. We have been in yur shoes and are well aware of all the shame and guilt that goes along with addiction, but if you want, you can make your journal private so that only you can read it....It's up to you.

So good luck on your road to recovery. May you find peace and happiness along the way.

Somehow you got this intension to reach out in DS and take a honest look at your behavior. This is quite a step to make and you should be grateful that this intension came. Change doesn’t happen w/o it. Now comes the work which is not looking away from what you need to see about yourself. It’s uncomfortable and the initial reaction is to take the easy way out by reverting back to our familiar behavior. The ones that aren’t serving you but enslaving you.
Well done on turning the knob, now push the door open, step through and leave the past where it belongs.
Stay in touch and don’t make it complicated. Don’t buy alcohol, don’t take a drink.
Probably a good idea to talk with a doctor about this or at least do a little research about what to expect and how to stay hydrated and nourished.
I’ve been part of this group for most of the five years of my new sober life. Everyone here knows what you’re going through.
I can tell you that the relief I feel without alcohol in my life has changed everything. I’m truly grateful for the gift.
We are all on your side and wish you the best

Hi kikri
Everyone wrote really good stuff above ^ just wanted to throw my support as well. Reach out as much as you need, just like the others said we’ve been through this and understand

Gentle hug <3

Thanks everyone. It's encouraging. AND no booze tonight. I was in health care for 38 years, so I have good idea of what to expect and do, but when the night is long and sleep is elusive----. Thaks again

I would find the brief moments when I would realize that booze was getting me, but never could quite stop. This last time I decided I needed help and found a room of aa. It was like I found an instruction book to life that I never had before. See I drank because I couldn’t handle life. It was the solution. Today I still go to a meeting just to keep my head right. The honest truth is quitting is just a start. Actually enjoying life is the real key to sobriety.

You can do it. C’mon!

How’s Kikri?

Ya, how are you doing?

No etoh for 3 days. Slipped last night.What concerns me is that at times I cannot bring to mind all the reasons I know are true about taking a drink. Tonight is another night, another chance.

The thing that I didn’t understand until I had a few sober months was how powerful a depressant it is. It just pulls you down so low that it doesn’t seem like it matters if you drink or not. And that’s f-ing terrifying!!

I used to get big bouts of depression when I drank, now that I am sober, I don't get those overwhelming black cloud days where I can't think straight................bad things can happen, but I process them differently now, I recognise the tough times for what they are and get through them. Prior, I would obsess for days on end, now my head is clear, they don't affect me the same way. If I drank now, it would only numb the issues momentarily, now I actually work my shit out with a sober, healthy mind.

Thanks for sharing, it really helps me continue to be AWARE. I hove been doing well. For ;me a lot of it is taking/making the time to pay attention to what I really want,

Are you ready? If so, we can help. If not, then John Barleycorn is our best advocate.

you will make it

Are you still sober or what’s the update