Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I can't move forward. I feel like my shoes are glued to the floor. June... shit hit the fan, and I have been stuck since. Alcohol is my cop out.
Everyone here has such great advice. I have good books to read that I think have some answers for me. I'm afraid to read them. I have God. I'm afraid to pray. There are good, caring people I can call, but I'm afraid to call them. I have meditation CDs that I'm afraid to listen to. I love sports and I know exercise will be part of a cure for me, but I have no motivation. People in my life love me, and I have many friends who care about me, but I keep pushing them away. I have a great life. I am successful in my career. I have nothing to really stress about. I am healthy physically. I walk around with charisma and a big smile on my face. All I want to do is get freaking numb. WTF is wrong with me? I don't understand it at all.
These feelings come in waves. Funks. I am happy 80% of the time, really happy, and then "the thought" enters my mind, and I get dizzy with anxiety. My eyes tear for no reason. I shake. I can't even wrap my brain around the emotion. I can't cry to release it. I feel like I need someone to just dig at me with chisel until they break me down. I want someone to just hold me and tell me they love me, but I am too proud and too callous. (I know, pity party) I don't really know wtf is wrong in my head. I can't stop thinking.
I need to figure out my enemy, so that I stop numbing myself every time I step onto the battlefield. If the "best way out is through" then wtf is "through"? And how do learn to do all of it for ME? I have to stop waiting for an epiphany that may never come.
I am 16 days sober today and I don't know what to think. I am treading water right now. I am trying to do little things that everyone says I should do, but it's like I have some mental block against getting myself well. "One day at a time" is great, but I have to be able to see a vision of my future beyond tomorrow.
Just a vent. Is there anything meaningful here at all or am I just being glum and fatalistic? Do i just need to yank my head out of my ass and conjure some willpower? What is the secret that I am missing?
I am pitiful. Thanks friends for listening to me whine.
Everyone here has such great advice. I have good books to read that I think have some answers for me. I'm afraid to read them. I have God. I'm afraid to pray. There are good, caring people I can call, but I'm afraid to call them. I have meditation CDs that I'm afraid to listen to. I love sports and I know exercise will be part of a cure for me, but I have no motivation. People in my life love me, and I have many friends who care about me, but I keep pushing them away. I have a great life. I am successful in my career. I have nothing to really stress about. I am healthy physically. I walk around with charisma and a big smile on my face. All I want to do is get freaking numb. WTF is wrong with me? I don't understand it at all.
These feelings come in waves. Funks. I am happy 80% of the time, really happy, and then "the thought" enters my mind, and I get dizzy with anxiety. My eyes tear for no reason. I shake. I can't even wrap my brain around the emotion. I can't cry to release it. I feel like I need someone to just dig at me with chisel until they break me down. I want someone to just hold me and tell me they love me, but I am too proud and too callous. (I know, pity party) I don't really know wtf is wrong in my head. I can't stop thinking.
I need to figure out my enemy, so that I stop numbing myself every time I step onto the battlefield. If the "best way out is through" then wtf is "through"? And how do learn to do all of it for ME? I have to stop waiting for an epiphany that may never come.
I am 16 days sober today and I don't know what to think. I am treading water right now. I am trying to do little things that everyone says I should do, but it's like I have some mental block against getting myself well. "One day at a time" is great, but I have to be able to see a vision of my future beyond tomorrow.
Just a vent. Is there anything meaningful here at all or am I just being glum and fatalistic? Do i just need to yank my head out of my ass and conjure some willpower? What is the secret that I am missing?
I am pitiful. Thanks friends for listening to me whine.
You have many fear thoughts and thoughts and emotions that disuade you of the right things in life.
Treat these thoughts and feelings like stray dogs-like they have no owner- and thus, let them continue on without you worrying or defending against them.
The fact is if you don't put your entire life, mind and soul into the hands of a sponsor you're asking for trouble.
To tell a woman to stop relying on their thinking and their feeling is taking away the essence of how they make sense of their lives. Most women have a need to have peace with their feelings and their thoughts so telling them to...."just stop it" won't work any better than telling them to stop breathing.
howtolive needs to understand where her fear is coming from...her fear of success or of being sober..... Giving up your will doesn't necessitate giving up your power of reasoning. I certainly won't debate the BB any more than the BIG book (aka bible) but common sense tells me to face your fear you need to know WHAT your fearful OF.
In reality, I often think more like the feminine persuasion (and they are persuasive) than those icky guys....... of course Howto, I explained this to you personally earlier.
"my own decesions got me into this mess"
sure i had a thought about the decesion, but I still decide to act on that thought.
It takes time of doing the right thing before you reprogam your old ways.
I am begining to see, it's not a quick fix
Come on Chick!