Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Taradactyl 05/10/2010

Can't quite describe it, but something is changing inside of me. I am starting to feel different and it feels really good. I am starting to feel like I have a whole new life ahead of me.

Maybe it will stick. Maybe it will pass.

I used to tell myself... "I can't drink"

Today, for the first time EVER... "I want to be sober."

I want more of this feeling. The stakes just became higher. I don't want to give up THIS feeling.

Was afraid to say it for fear it would be taken from me... I am looking forward to long term sobriety. I think I just might be able to do this thing.

deleted_user 05/10/2010

yay for you! that is a great feeling. walk through your fear...it is so freeing!

deleted_user 05/10/2010

They always said to me, 'the want has to be greater than the need' (an ol wise man named 'gjm' actually drilled it into my brain ). I wanted to want it so badly I could taste it...then I started feeling it...started craving it more than the drink...more than anything I 'wanted', and so my journey of recovery/freedom began!

Welcome to recovery, sista girl! Freedom we couldn't even IMAGINE is suddenly becoming our reality!

deleted_user 05/10/2010

That is so awesome! I remember the 1st glimmers of hope and joy....and it does get better and doesn't go away...keep trucking kiddo...doing G R E A T !!

deleted_user 05/10/2010

Cool ain't it? When you find want sobriety more than anything else, you got it. Whatever "it" is, it just traveled the longest distance in the world - from your head to your heart...

jamesross 05/10/2010

Recovery is about change, and I'm so happy for you that you're experiencing it. That's life being given to you. You do have a new life ahead of you. A sober one. That's a miracle that your feeling. On your own, you never would have experienced that. We were hell bent on killing ourselves on our own. Change is taking place within you, and there's more to come. Congratulations, and I wish for you all the recovery you deserve. That feeling will pass as you grow, and you will experience more as you keep going. Don't let it go. James

drafter 05/10/2010

Haha! Good stuff.

Taradactyl 05/10/2010

Haha! Denny, I just realized my status. You are so right. I think I am starting to feel "it" in my heart. It's just a beginning.

Perfect description BFF of what I am starting to feel. :)

Yay! This is G R E A T. Thanks guys.

Please God, let this feeling stick.

CoogeeMum 05/10/2010

Looks like you've got some motivation happening now. The 'want' inside of me is what gets me moving towards my goals in life. I'm glad your sharing this HTL, it gives others Hope and inspiration. Onwards!! :}

deleted_user 05/11/2010

I feel the transition in you. The warmth... Can't describe it exactly but it's there!

In the meeting tonight, a friend told me this:

Step 2

"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."

He said, "It doesn't say WOULD restore us to sanity.... It says COULD restore us to sanity.

This partly means that it takes our will, choice and action to receive this restoration of mind and soul.

I see this in you Anna.

deleted_user 05/11/2010

Howtolive, fantastic feeling i,m right behind you.

deleted_user 05/11/2010

Hey, isn't it cool but scarey to suddenly have something worth fighting for again? When most everything has been taken away? There is more here where this came from!!

xpdcarmella 05/11/2010

Anna,

I can never give replies like others, but sounds like you have reached that feeling we talk about. I am so happy for you. You have worked and worked and worked, spilled your guts out and never gave up. You are an inspiration to me and to this site. I am so happy to share sobriety with you and i am glad you are beginning to reap the many benefits. This is my first reading of the morning, and what pleasure and gratitude i took in reading this!

Hugs, and more hugs!

Pam

deleted_user 05/11/2010

aaah lady you are finding it - that's so wonderful - i am proud of you - keep focused, keep working and you can do this!

deleted_user 05/11/2010

How cool is that???

That change in thinking is so profound, all the time that we feel that it sucks that we CAN'T drink, we run the risk of having a f**k it moment and off to the off licence. Now you WANT to be sober, your recovery is on a different footing.

Excellent! this stuff really works!

deleted_user 05/11/2010

Yay you Olive!! :) And it gets better. :)

Sure "issues" will arise here and there...but I have found that things that were the end of the world when I was drinking, are really no big deal at all in sobriety.

Gooooooo Olive!! woohooo!! Keep goin sister, you're doin awesome! :)

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