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finallyawakenow
finallyawakenow

That's what my 40 months sober sounded like when I typed it. The 40 days of rain, I'm sure, was the thinking there.Not religious at all so I hope the title does'nt disapoint. I've been thinking about the spiritual journey I've been on since I quit drinking all those days ago. Read a lot on Buddism, the words of Jesus and (my fav) Taoism. Went to India for a month of yoga, Temple experiance, and (my fav) walking in the mountians of the north and meeting so many beautiful folks. Most were silent meetings from the language barrier but the heart connection was real. From month two I have walked in nature everyday and the silence of these walks has been the best teaching. Self inquiry for 40 months has allowed a lot of stuff to fall away from me. So that's what this sober journey has been for me. An awakening to my true self. It absolutly can be called a spiritual awakening as I know myself better than I ever have (my spirit if you will) yet it's also been simply living a wholesome life that has lightened my heart. I like what 1is2 says; want self esteem? do esteemable acts. Yup, I think it's that basic. I worked a lot the past 10 days and am taking the day off. Tea and watching the birds at the feeded I put up. Some yoga and exercise, study for my state test on basic lifesaving, then a hike. Picking up my girl for lunch later then more studying. (I want to ace this test because this volunteer work on the ambulence is f-ing serious.) Such a simple quiet day and I could'nt be happier. That's what sobriety and all this self inquiry has allowed; peace. I know who I am and that's enough. I'm my higher power. And it only took me Fifty years to see that so I feel lucky and so so thankful. When I look back at the start of this jounrey I'm in awe of what a mess my mind was and how subtle and steady the healing has been. Just beautiful. Hope you are appreciating your day too. everyone of them is a miracle. 

Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
I highly recommend the book, "The autobiography of Jesus" which is a channeled book by Tina Spaulding. In it Jesus makes corrections to many of the things he was misquoted on in the Bible, and he tells the whole story of what he was doing during the 3 years of his life that are missing from the Bible. It is very eye opening!

Thankyou for being here!



~~~Peace~~~
Kevin105
Kevin105
great share, especially the part about letting things fall away that you've been clinging to. my ongoing lesson, letting go of my attachments like recurring negative thoughts, self-image, relationships. appreciate the reminder and your success on this new path. K.
Shiney
Shiney
you are kicking so many life goals, so proud of you, I love " an awakening to my true self' - we find the person we buried for so long, and it's as if we have come out of a deep sleep, and come out renewed - best feeling ever x
finallyawakenow
finallyawakenow
thanks guys for the nice comments. I've been very busy with work projects and spring cleaning. outside too. turning over some of the garden beds by hand. the tilling cuts up the winter rye cover crop well but it damages good and bad bugs and that's not always a good thing. For two years we had tomato hornworm then we encouraged a wasp that kills them. last year I let nature do its thing and the wasps totally did the job. Planting more herbs this year to help the 30 year old organic garden ward off pests. There are 15 3X15 foot raised beds and large outside the fence beds. On the first garden year I spent 4 days building the fence, going into the forest with a bow saw and hatchet to harvest large cedar poles for the fence frame. 8 feet high keeps out the critters and deer. Except for the bunnys which don't eat anything but the bean plants (not many) It's the weirdest thing. I see them sitting on the grassy walks, inside the fence,, hanging out at twilight, right next to rows of crisp lettuces and green crops, not taking a bite. I can't explain it. Anyway, busy and haven't checked in. bye
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