I feel ya.

My husband also suffers from depression and relies on mental health professionals, modern pharmaceuticals and spiritual connection to combat his depression. Some days are better than others, but any day sober is better than the alternative.

God Bless.

Life is a series of ups and downs. I have learned that it helps me greatly to have a support system and a Power greater then myself to get me through those down days.

God Bless

Sorry you are having a rough time. There's no reason to feel bad about having feelings that are beyond your control. Hope you feel better soon.

Seeking help and being open with yourself and others is an amazing place to get to. Keep that up. You have probably come farther than you may think. I am finding that my progress comes in little waves made possible by daily practice of living the most wholesome life I can in the moment. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like I’m getting anywhere but then a positive thought or action comes from me and I realize that it would have never happened without my sobriety and spiritual practice.

I too have feelings of depression and suicide in the past weeks. I can’t imagine going back to drinking and the default in my head is to just end it. I just have no feelings of joy and all pain and it is tough some times. But I have been here before and I have got thru it a couple of times.

Keep your head up and I will say a prayer for you tonite.

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Was wondering if the oncoming winter could be intensifying these dark thoughts. It affects my wife deeply and I imagine we all feel some anxiety weather we see it or not. I am trying to change my perspective on it by appreciating the time to organize our life to get ready to move in the spring. I know: cleaning and painting, what joy. But it also builds mental health. One sorted storage bin at a time. Practice.

Great stuff everyone. Thanks for your help. I'm starting new meds today. Weather used to be a factor when I was drinking, but I too have changed my perspective and really do embrace each season. My life is pretty good right now by all appearances,,,,,,wife and daughter I adore, house, job, paid off debt etc...And most importantly, I have a higher power guiding me. All of this leads me to believe it really is a chemical thing. Perhaps a serotonin deficiency or something. Just talking to my doctor today provided some hope and belief that this too will pass if I continue to do my part. Thanks again and remember to take it easy and not be too hard on ourselves.

good news, great advice, and continued success!

I agree it ain't all rainbows and perfect times for me and I do suffer from depression and highs and lows. My back ground is a little aged as I had never worked on the mental defects because of my then military job and if I asked for help back then I would surely be discharged! It wasn't until this current ongoing conflict with the US did the DoD start addressing mental issues with more vigor!

I have tried a few different meds over the years and being a frigging zombie is not what I classify as quality of life! I have issues with medicines because I don't need anymore addictions and so for me I have a therapist and mostly exposing my ways in a more bite size understanding has helped. I am not fixed and again I do suffer from weird dark times and it has been with me my entire life and it sucks!

If one character defect could be removed I'd most likely ask for the glass to be 1/2 full instead of the negative aspects.

Thanks for this topic as it does allow me to look back and see some positive progression as I haven't drank over my down times and so I must understand something about the disease of alcoholism....