...and I've been thinking about what I've learned in this recovery process. Here are some observations in no particular order:
1. My commitment to sobriety has to be renewed every day
2. New friends are coming slower than those I had to let go of, but it's getting better each day
3. Whenever I crave a drink, I remind myself "that I am powerless over alcohol". Overall, these cravings are dissapating each month.
4. I also find that when I crave something to drink I'm really just hungry, and a little food takes care of the urge
5. While I've made amends and let go of the guilt of hurting others in the past, I must remind myself of this frequently
6. Working the steps of Refuge Recovery has guided me on the recovery path. Without them, I would have probably would gotten lost as I have in the past
7. Fellow alcoholics know my struggles best and vice versa. I try to stay to stay connected through my activity here and Refuge Recovery
8. My recovery experience only really began with sobriety and now I find myself addressing the root causes of my addiction. This is where the real work begins
9. I allow myself to be a happy again. It's been a long time.
Im 42 and have been drinking heavy for about 7 years. I have been having alot of pain in my upper left and right abdomen. Went to the doctor and today i got my lab results back. I have to say i am pretty nervous as the numbers show possible liver or pancreas issues. Obviously i went and threw out all alcohol in the house and am quiting cold turkey, I do know the risks and will be monitored...
I am very proud of myself, it hasn't been easy. I feel so much better mentally and physically :)