...and I've been thinking about what I've learned in this recovery process. Here are some observations in no particular order:
1. My commitment to sobriety has to be renewed every day
2. New friends are coming slower than those I had to let go of, but it's getting better each day
3. Whenever I crave a drink, I remind myself "that I am powerless over alcohol". Overall, these cravings are dissapating each month.
4. I also find that when I crave something to drink I'm really just hungry, and a little food takes care of the urge
5. While I've made amends and let go of the guilt of hurting others in the past, I must remind myself of this frequently
6. Working the steps of Refuge Recovery has guided me on the recovery path. Without them, I would have probably would gotten lost as I have in the past
7. Fellow alcoholics know my struggles best and vice versa. I try to stay to stay connected through my activity here and Refuge Recovery
8. My recovery experience only really began with sobriety and now I find myself addressing the root causes of my addiction. This is where the real work begins
9. I allow myself to be a happy again. It's been a long time.
I have been drinking very heavy for 3 years now and I want out, it's not fun anymore. I woke up today in so much pain! My head is killing me, my stomach hurts like crazy, and I have so much guilt it's unbearable. I can not continue life down this road. I want and need to stop but I've tried well over 30 times....
Looking for help with dealing with a spouse who is alcoholic. I need support of what to do