Whilst in my cups if someone told me that alcohol was running my life and that alcohol was my master I would have thought they needed to visit the men in the white coats. No way was it running my life. Did not I have the trappings of life, home. children, wife. career, boat? Where not all these things what we aimed to achieve in our life??

I it was not till I sat with my sponsor and talked about the first step that I came to realise how alcohol managed my life.

Did I not take a slab in the boot when I went to a party in case there was not enough.

Did I not take that offered beer knowing there was not enough to get drunk,

Did I not make sure the fridge had enough grog in it to get totalled all the time.

Did I not make excuses to not go to functions because I knew there was no alcohol.

Did I not sit at work and count the hours down till I could get the grog, in fact did I not say 2 hours till beer o'clock.

Did I not leave work on many occassions saying I would not drink tonight only to find myself cracking that first can.

Did I not then say to myself after cracking that first can OK I will only have one or two only to wake up the next morning haveing drunk everything.

These are just a few of the examples of how alcohol was effecting my life. I can look at these now and see that I ran my life around my alcohol, therefore, the grog was the real power in my life.

I was powerless over the alcohol in that I had to have it and my life was unmanageable with out it. Therefore it was alcohol that was running my life, I did everything around alcohol it was my master.

I could now see I was powerless and my life was unmanageable.

G8