I'm 76 and I've had a problem with alcohol for years. I drank to dull the pain of an unhappy marriage, but hadn't the courage to face divorce. Now I'm living on my own, my husband was recently admitted to a care home with advanced Alzheimers, and I know it's now or never. I long to be free of the misery and guilt brought on by drinking two bottles of wine every night, how disgusting it makes me feel, I'm ashamed to look in the mirror. My life's totally unmanageable with alcohol, I long to be free of it. For years I thought I was the life and soul of every party, how wrong I was!
I decided to stop drinking after Christmas, but then why wait? Why ruin another Christmas and New Year when I can make the decision to stop now. I know it will be hard, I just have to remind myself how dreadful the alternative is, the damage to my health (my poor liver!) and the worry and unhappiness my drinking will cause my son.
So here I am on the morning of my first sober day for a very long time. I woul welcome any advice from those of you further down the road of recovery, I need all the help I can get. Xx
In bad need of someone to talk to had a relapse over the last year my life has fallen apart .I am lost.
Good morning fellow members!In the past all of my choices were not the best. I have found that when I do not ask for help, I get in trouble. Within the past 6 years of sobriety, I have decided to finally start communicating my real emotions and feelings. I have found that this group is another way to make good choices, by asking for suggestions and opinions. This is something I have fought tooth...