I'm 76 and I've had a problem with alcohol for years. I drank to dull the pain of an unhappy marriage, but hadn't the courage to face divorce. Now I'm living on my own, my husband was recently admitted to a care home with advanced Alzheimers, and I know it's now or never. I long to be free of the misery and guilt brought on by drinking two bottles of wine every night, how disgusting it makes me feel, I'm ashamed to look in the mirror. My life's totally unmanageable with alcohol, I long to be free of it. For years I thought I was the life and soul of every party, how wrong I was!
I decided to stop drinking after Christmas, but then why wait? Why ruin another Christmas and New Year when I can make the decision to stop now. I know it will be hard, I just have to remind myself how dreadful the alternative is, the damage to my health (my poor liver!) and the worry and unhappiness my drinking will cause my son.
So here I am on the morning of my first sober day for a very long time. I woul welcome any advice from those of you further down the road of recovery, I need all the help I can get. Xx
First win since 2016! Thought it should be acknowledged. The game got really exciting when Mayfield got in. Anyone else watch hard knocks? Good season with the Browns this year and Baker looks like a star.
I wanted to thank everyone who gave me advice on my loud and not sober neighbor. I finally reported her today. I feel liberated and taking a piece of my sanity and mental health back. I feel bad a little because I know that my s.o and I were in the same situation as her a few years ago. However, not screaming and triggering neighbors. I hope now this brings more peace to our living space. I know...