I'm 76 and I've had a problem with alcohol for years. I drank to dull the pain of an unhappy marriage, but hadn't the courage to face divorce. Now I'm living on my own, my husband was recently admitted to a care home with advanced Alzheimers, and I know it's now or never. I long to be free of the misery and guilt brought on by drinking two bottles of wine every night, how disgusting it makes me feel, I'm ashamed to look in the mirror. My life's totally unmanageable with alcohol, I long to be free of it. For years I thought I was the life and soul of every party, how wrong I was!
I decided to stop drinking after Christmas, but then why wait? Why ruin another Christmas and New Year when I can make the decision to stop now. I know it will be hard, I just have to remind myself how dreadful the alternative is, the damage to my health (my poor liver!) and the worry and unhappiness my drinking will cause my son.
So here I am on the morning of my first sober day for a very long time. I woul welcome any advice from those of you further down the road of recovery, I need all the help I can get. Xx
With great sadness, Duke passed away this afternoon at the Vet's office. They found a large tumour in his stomach.They only gave him a couple of days.I made a choice, so he would no longer suffer. I got to spend about an hour with him & held him as he went to sleep.He is beside his brother Fred now & god will take care of them until we meet again.Thank you for your prayers.Hugs!Brooke
I think I'm a alcoholic. I'm not quite sure. I can go days without drinking. But it's my go to when things get bad. It's stupid how I started. I work night shift. That messed with my sleep cycle. On my days off I have to be mom and wife and maid and cook so I have to get back on a normal schedule. Then switch back to 12 hour nights when I work. I could never find anything that helped me sleep on...