The disease in me wants to get me overwhelmed so I have an excuse to take a drink.

Try to keep things simple. Take things one at a time and don’t get overwhelmed.

Many times I am in fear and worried about the future and it manifests in anger or snapping.

Take it easy. Rome wasn’t built in a day and so sobriety takes time to get better.

The main thing is get thru today without having to pick up a drink
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You can do that right

1is2many

Thank you 1is2many. Yes, I can do that. I like the Rome scenario, it makes me see life a little clearer. I appreciate the advice, and friendly but yet serious statement about the disease because I just looked at too man y things on the table. But right now I have too endure to the end of year. I will take it easy because I definitely do not want to start that mess of drinking again. One is definitely too many. I know where that one will take me and that never ended good.

Thank you!

Learn to live in the now. Focus on the one thing on your plate that you are doing. Let go of the others. When that is done go to the next and stay in the present. I meditate 15 minutes every day.

https://www.wikihow.com/Meditate

I have a lot on my plate. I go for surgery on Monday. Presently, I am posting this. My next plate is write reports that my boss wants today. I took care of the Disability insurance, got forms for the surgeon, talked with anesthesiologist about my difficulties coming out of anesthesia, got letter from Stanford anesthesiologist for him, set up retirement plans in case spinal surgery goes bad, power of attorney for my wife, meeting with attorneys at work, wrote over due reports, etc, I did one at a time, focusing on the one that I was doing. This has been a busy week.

I highly recommend meditation, like others have mentioned. You will be surprised how great you feel after practicing it for just a few weeks!

God Bless

Make amends and live without conflict in your head.

You know what? There isn't anything I have gone through sober that I looked back on and said, Gee, I wish I had gone through that drunk. That includes all that life and death holds for the last 33 years. You can do it. I am glad I am still here; I would not have been if I'd kept on drinking, plain and simple.

Thank you all for your fee back. I have kept it simple thus far and have done good last week. I am preparing myself for meditation and I am looking forward to trying it, it is something I definitely need to do. I recognize my disease trying to get me overwhelmed, and this is why this site is good for me.

Best regards on your surgery impermanence, I appreciate your comment in how I can busy, and still get everything done, one job at a time. Your statement shows me I can do it.

I have made amends at that was very helpful. I am working hard on trying to do it all sober for a very long time. I will keep trying one day at a time.

Thank you for your gift of grace, and I will allow myself to give it to myself. This is different, but yet I receive it.

David, how are you feeling now?

Much better than previous weeks jeffneedshelp. Welcome!