Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I haven't been on in awhile. My reasons were mainly because o was embarrassed to keep repeating how I drank yet again. So many failed attempts doing it on my own. I am not sober all that long but I feel completely different this time around. I have an amazing support system in place that I never would have had had I not decided to step into one of those rooms. I thought I had a support system in family and friends and could somehow do it with online meetings and online support. Don't get me wrong, those things were helpful and I had to do them to realize it wasn't enough and I needed more. I had to get to a place where I completely feared what would happen if I didn't do something I never wanted to do, the thing I was so fearful of, the thing I had told myself o would never do.. Go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. And to be truthful, I thought I would go once and hate it and I would never go again but at least I could tell people I tried. I could never have been more wrong about something in my life. It is, by far, the best thing that could have happened to me. I feel like it's where o was supposed to be my whole life. I truly feel like God took my life, shook it up and sent it down the drain to get me to the point I would walk through those doors because it's where I need to be. I lost my connection to pretty much everything and my life was not moving in any direction. I was avoiding so much by drowning it with alcohol and I was experiencing no growth as a person. This was before my problem with alcohol. I needed to get to one of those meetings to help me get my life headed in the right direction. I'm on that path now and I don't want to ever get off. The support and kindness had been one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. I walk out of my meetings with the same feeling as taking a drink gave me. Relaxed. Except I go to sleep and wake up and remember everything from the night before. I'm sorry for rambling. I know AA is not for everyone. I thought I was one of those people. I had no idea how wrong I was until I actually have it a shot.
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
Great news and I am so happy for you. I know exactly how you feel as I think back to the first AA meetings that I attended.
From this time on, it can get better and better for you, if you are prepared to work at it. I would suggest making full use of everything that AA has to offer.
God Bless!
I have not gone to as many meetings as I did in my first two years, I "got busy" and it has not made me more understanding or effective like the 10th step asks us to be. Online support is great, but you're right, it lacks that reality of being next to, or talking face to face with another recovering person.
I liked how you spoke of the internet experience leading you to the truth that real life meetings would be better. This past couple of months, I committed to a schedule that made going to meetings not a priority, I figured my 12th step work, my literature reading, my enjoyment from listening to speakers via youtube, would fill the void of meetings 7 days a week. I am happy to report, when it came time to commit to a new schedule for the first 6 months of next year, I kept it where I was available to go to meetings each day. Well with the exception of Sat and Sun, so it's progress not perfection!
I want to thank you so much, it is great to hear someone break that delusion fear provides, and actually take a positive step for themselves, the great news is I hope it was so memorable you can use it as proof against the contrary when your illness or ego tries to persuade you again it will not work. I had a great experience like that early in sobriety, I remember ignoring my head for a good hour just moving my feet towards the meeting club, one step at a time, and then in that meeting the most powerful relief came over me and I knew I had done the right thing, it was really a turning point (one of many) I will never forget and that will always be there as a supportive memory. Thank You!