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I fell off the wagon after only 9 days

QueTMama
QueTMama

I managed to stay sober for 9 days and I was feeling great and so proud of myself then Hurricane Matthew was coming straight at FL where I live so I planned to go to my Mom's house. As soon as I made that decision the cravings started it was like I had already made up in my mind that I was going to drink and I couldn't stop it. Needless to say I drank everything that wasn't nailed down and I haven't stopped since and that was a week ago. I don't know how to turn this back around. I feel like a failure. I also don't know why my Mom's house was such a huge trigger for me. I wasn't even stressed about the hurricane. Smh. I can't keep going through this cycle. 

jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
You're here tonight talking about it. Have you drank today? If so, just try not not drink tomorrow. 24 hours at a time.
QueTMama
QueTMama
Yes I drank tonight. It's been every night for the past week.
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
Ok. Are you still drinking? Try to think back at the 8 days you didn't drink. How did you feel?

Are you still at your moms? No more trigger?
QueTMama
QueTMama
No I'm home. I'm done drinking for the night. I try to think back. I was happy and felt great but for some reason I'm getting anxiety now when I think about not drinking like I won't know what to do with myself which I know is not true. Feels like I'll never get out of this addiction.
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
It's ok. Happens to all of us.

It's good that you stopped tonihht and you're thinking about quitting.
QueTMama
QueTMama
Thanks for listening. Hopefully tomorrow will be different.
QueTMama
QueTMama
The reason I stopped drinking tonight is because the bottle is empty and I'm not leaving the house at 10:30pm to get more.
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
A really sick drunk would've got in the car and gone and got more.
Mandy1
Mandy1
I would've been that really sick drunk:(
QueTMama
QueTMama
I'm usually that sick too I was just too tired. I guess that's a good thing. I'm going to try to not drink tonight. This isn't going to be easy. I already feel the craving.
Mandy1
Mandy1
I'm just sick in my head. I want some glimmer of hope... That somehow it's going to get better. I'm a true alcoholic, come from alcoholics Font know any other way of life.. I have begged my family not to leaving.. I don't B trust myself for 1 minute alone.
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
Sounds like you have self esteem or maybe loneliness issues that trigger your drinking. You might want to look into a treatment program or at least try AA. The 12 steps worked wonders for me. Get a sponser and do the steps. It saved my life and it can save yours as well.

God Bless
QueTMama
QueTMama
I know exactly how you feel Mandy1. I grew up with an alcoholic Grandfather so it was always around. I didn't image I would become one also. I don't trust myself alone either. That's when I get cravings the most. It's like I can't be alone with my own thoughts.
PJ54
PJ54
Hello QueTMama,

Can you see an obsession for alcohol at work? Remember, an obsession is an idea that can overcome all other ideas. You were determined to stay sober but yet you made up your mind to drink and once you started you got a craving for more and could not stop.

The insanity of alcoholism is doing the same thing over and over but hoping for a different result. You will probably continue with this crazy cycle until you decide to take action to remove the obsession.
seaQ
seaQ
QueTMama and Mandy, if we can find help, and help each other through the cravings, we can QUIT drinking. It's SOO hard to overcome the cravings, but rising above alcohol abuse feels great! Keeping strong is difficult. Convincing ourselves that we are strong is key. I do an aerobics workout to help me feel strong. Plus, I've been replacing alcohol with food, so I need to exercise more anyway. Yes, figuring out how to overcome the obsession, like PJ said, is mandatory. We can do this!
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