Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Life is great. I almost can't imagine it getting any better.
I just keep getting moments or periods of apathy and I just don't give crap about anything, especially the fact that I am not supposed to drink. I feel like I have just given up all hope of continuous sobriety.
I had 18 mos without a drink and relapsed in July. Now I can't seem to get much past 30 days. I doubled my efforts this last time. For 35 days I went to 2 mtgs a day. I started praying every day asking for help. I am working on the steps with someone who has good sobriety. I am on an antidepressant and seeing a therapist every week. I talk to recovering alcoholics every single day and I stay active with my friends in recovery. I am an intergroup for one mtg. I share in mtgs. I am honest to the best of my ability. I try to think of others and pray that I can be of service.
I heard someone say "right thinking follows right action" and I am hoping all this shifts me to want sobriety for good.
I am maybe missing the surrender bit. Defiance and ego are my character defects. I don't exactly know how to change. I keep trying and failing.
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I just keep getting moments or periods of apathy and I just don't give crap about anything, especially the fact that I am not supposed to drink. I feel like I have just given up all hope of continuous sobriety.
I had 18 mos without a drink and relapsed in July. Now I can't seem to get much past 30 days. I doubled my efforts this last time. For 35 days I went to 2 mtgs a day. I started praying every day asking for help. I am working on the steps with someone who has good sobriety. I am on an antidepressant and seeing a therapist every week. I talk to recovering alcoholics every single day and I stay active with my friends in recovery. I am an intergroup for one mtg. I share in mtgs. I am honest to the best of my ability. I try to think of others and pray that I can be of service.
I heard someone say "right thinking follows right action" and I am hoping all this shifts me to want sobriety for good.
I am maybe missing the surrender bit. Defiance and ego are my character defects. I don't exactly know how to change. I keep trying and failing.
:(
I got a sponsor. She would wanna know that. This lady was in my very first AA mtg and I have spent a lot of time with her over the past few years. I am not sure I am very teachable right now but she is aware of my defects and how difficult I can be and she thinks she can help. I haven't had to call anyone every day for a really long time. I am choosing to submit to that. It won't be hard - as I said I know this woman well.
I wish Chris were here. I wish my drunk post was not the last one she saw from me. I wish she could have seen me get the promises too. My heart is heavy today.
Keep working the steps, it's there that you find your way and solitude.
Without reading the responses that struck me as YOUR key. The only step we can't mess with is the 1st step. When you have imbedded that Step..... completely surrendering all "hope" and "belief" that you are somehow NOT an alcoholic you will receive the miracle.
Whatever you do please don't quit on yourself....I have seen your life change before my eyes and all the positive thing you are doing will help. I was never able to "get it" until I surrendered...honestly and completely. love you girl
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfmvkO5x6Ng
Anyway I'm happy for you on a new sponsor. Another fresh start.
I havent *had* to call someone every day since getting sober, but I have anyway. My sponsor encouraged me to do it and I at least text someone in the program daily. Its a huge help to me personally and I've been told it's helped others. So maybe keep up the reach out?
Anyway, hope you are doing well and Happy New Year.
Good luck
Today, volunteered my sponsor and I, on her suggestion, to take a mtg to a mental health facility for the month of Feb.
xo