I am new to the forum, I am 57 years old. I was married for 25 years and have been divorced for five.
When I was in my teens up until I got married, I was a binge drinker a couple of time a week. When I got married, I stopped completely and never had even a single beer for 25 years.
Since I have been divorced, I have become an alcoholic. The last three years, I have gone six weeks twice with no drinking, but cannot maintain it. I have been drinking every day for the last month. This is the worst I have been.
I am desperate for some help, and want to stop.
I tried AA about six months ago, but didn't feel comfortable there. The anxiety I am feeling is crippling me and making it difficult to do my job.
I need a change in my life.
So I have rules about alcohol. I try not to drink at bars, but I like the environment of a bar. Not a crowded bar, but one that just opened at noon. Ill chat with the bartender, order some food maybe. In the past I had "portion control" issues with alcohol. Mainly beer. I don't care for hard alcohol. Like wiskey strait or scotch. I do favor shots of Jägermeister. I am first born in the US of...
Thanks to anyone that wants to listen. I have had a drinking problem for the last few years. I've been happily married for 24 years. We have a son who is 16. Today I realized I need to put the bottle down and stay away. I have had many deaths in or family over the last few years and I relied on drinking to help me get through my issues. Today I started my sobriety and I thought I would join this...