I have been to AA less than 3 times my whole life on the past 20 years, so I can't comment.
I do know that U R only human. I have relapsed before.
All I can say is that when you start looking at alcohol in a different light, viewing it as a Poison and Evil in a bottle instead of this wonderful liquid that will bring you good times, joy and happiness, it might not appeal you anymore.
Alcohol has no benefits and will do nothing for you.
No 'support group' should make you feel like your being 'talked down too': your words.
But even if they did, you are the one in control of what you put in your body. I hope it all works out for U.

Wow sounds like somebody is wrapped around the axel. I am sorry that you got a resentment against ppl in AA. My group tries to help not hurt the newcomer.

Sometimes the truth is not what we want to hear and being a sensitive alcoholic I get pissed off at people for telling me what i need to hear not want to hear.

What did somebody say to make you go out and take a drink?

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I completely understand what you are going through! I tried AA in the past and it never made me feel good and I too left often feeling worse then when I came in. My therapist had suggested I stay away but it was too late...a year later of drinking and I am now back on day 4. I need to find something else that will work and it sounds like you do also.

As previously mentioned, we need to look at alcohol as a poison and something that will never do anything good for US. Hang in there, start over and go forward.

confused guy....maybe your old home group was not the place to go....or maybe it wasn't your old group..I dunno....but I will say I saw this coming...just like I SEE IT IN ME.

You were doing well but having cravings....and didn't feel the same from the beginning of this new sobriety start just like me.

You know and I know that no one can "make" us drink. In the last couple days...my son and some relationships in my life are "making" me want to drink..."pushing" me to escape. I BLAME them...and YES...if they weren't around I may have an easier time in my sobriety.

But, I may also find other things that "make" me drink...like making a necessary phone call yesterday...right before the call I said to b/f...these kinda things make me want to drink. Its true certain things and people...I can very easily blame...and they do give me those feelings of hopeless and need to escape.

Going to the Dr. yesterday and being made to sit there for 2 hours to wait to see him and feeling "trapped"...the liquor store was very attractive. I came very close to relapse yesterday because of that anxiety and anger of being trapped because I NEEDED to see him.

But, I had to keep repeating to myself....no one makes me drink...if I drink it is because I WANT to drink to escape....I'm close to relapsing....so I understand what you are going thru...but ultimately I can blame everyone and everything....but if I do it....I know the reality is the need to drink is already within me and I'm just looking for the reason to get me walking into the liquor store and caving in to my craving to escape.

I hope you can stop again...I keep asking myself...if I am going to drink...am I willing to accept that this stuff is winning and is going to kill me?...I very well might get to the point where I don't give a fuck as well.

Stay away from AA if that is pissing you off right now. I use my counselor right now as a way to say I'm taking care of myself and my alcoholism....Your post was the first one I clicked on this morning because it is so baffling to see who this fucking addiction has gotten again...its scary...this could very well be me...later today typing the same thing.

Just the way I am talking about relapsing is a poor sign. I hope you do have a good friend to talk to...but in the end...when I drink....no friends or groups matter...I get scared...scared that I won't stop....no matter how I talk about it....I know your scared...and I'm sorry for you that this happened.

I am not going to stop going to meetings, I just need to take the good with the bad. I apologize for my profanity, being sober has awakened my emotions to a new level. It was a minor slip, I did not get loaded but I did drink :(

I'm sorry but you can't blame your relapse on anyone but yourself.

Maybe you should find a different group, get a sponser and do the steps.

Good luck!

Am I supposed to apologize for my profanity? It seems DS allows it and sometimes I have to swear....to get the anger out or get my point across.

You are clearly angry right now...and it is understandable.

I know you were apologizing to everyone...and not me...and maybe it did offend someone..but I look way to deep into things...and I was thinking when I read your apology..yup, the guilt of drinking making us feel extra sensitive and is he really sorry for swearing? Or just feels like he should be because he has attended AA for so long and they specifically (brainwash) into not using profanity?

AA saved my life and maybe did make me think about my language and its effect on others but.....

I particularly like going to NA meetings...I don't use drugs....but I have been to a couple NA meetings with friends and one of the main reasons I like going to NA is because they SWEAR freely....swearing seems to hit the emotional height of the story or situation giving me stronger emotions...and many times in those meetings...swearing evokes laughter.

I find the people in NA to be more real...because of the swearing..they don't think or form their experiences to fit the audience, they don't wear masks...they are able to be themselves...and If I were to go back to any meetings although I'm a recovering alcoholic I would prefer NA.

In AA they mention not to swear. Because of my rebellious personality....I want to be myself and be accepted as myself...and part of me showing emotion is swearing.

If I believed in triggers I would still be drinking - to me "trigger" is a just another word for "excuse" no-one, nothing can make a person drink. Not everyone resorts to alcohol when the going gets tough. Recovery is tough when the alcohol is still looking like an out. Get through the steps, that's the answer I was given and I found I looked at everything in a whole different way. That was just the start but at least it freed me from the want to drink. The rest has been a growing up process day by day, year by year...

Hey CG. Just want to say I tollay hear you. I have a few friends in AA and I am glad it has helped them but I do not appreciate being talked down to either. I can see that some people are more healthy and grateful in their sobriety than others. while I repect the double digit years I find that I do not want what they have if they are going to have that kind of attiude with me . I love my sobriety but I would rather say keep what you have I dont want what youve got. it does turn off some newcomers to the point they would rather keep on drinking than take on their elevated prideful attiude. Attraction not promotion. Nuff said. Thank you.

Sobriety isn't always easy and it isn't always a straight path.

i am glad you did not let your decision to have a few drinks totally derail you. Too often it seems that people think, "oh well, I drank, I'm back to day one, so I might as well keep drinking." Much better to learn from it and get back on track. So kudos for that.

A comment on triggers... triggers don't make you drink. You choose to drink. But situations (bad or good), memories, associations, and habits can trigger the desire to drink. It is good to recognize when this happens so you can figure out why and break that connection.