Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Hi, it's 11pm here in Sydney, on 31-12-12, and I just want to wish everyone on this site a safe, sober new year.
I nearly went back out, about 10 days ago. I''m still shaky, and just wanted to share about it. A few weeks ago, my aunty sent me $50 for Christmas, and a well wish. Well, i've had huge resentments against my aunty, doesn't matter what for. I HAD been praying for her recently, so I thought 'what could it hurt to ring her up and say 'thanks'?'
Well, we spoke on the phone, and she totally triggered me. That night, I had huge anger and resentment!!! Since then, i've been practicing letting go and forgiveness.
Anyway, a few days later, I really wanted to drink and drug. All I could see was one joint, and two drinks, and how fantastic that would feel. Which it would - but it never ends there! I'm an alcoholic, I've nearly killed myself on alcohol before.
So, I've been doing meetings every day since then, and praying, and getting on my knees, and reading the literature, and going to church, and talking to people, and listening to 'forgiveness' CDs.
I felt like drinking again last Friday evening - I was at a women's AA meeting and didn't feel I belonged. So I told a friend how I felt - she's 20 years sober but i knew her in hospital all that time ago. She was fantastic, and saved my sorry arse for the night. She made me laugh at myself, and my resentments, and my 'typical alcoholic' thinking.
I really needed to have a good laugh.
Now it's Monday night - did another great meeting tonight.
I'm shook up that i suddenly felt like drinking again, after being OK for quite a while.
I've come to appreciate AA more than I used to - as something I need for survival. I know there's other ways to do it, and some people stay sober on their own - I couldn't POSSIBLY stay sober on my own.
Happy new year to everyone here.
I nearly went back out, about 10 days ago. I''m still shaky, and just wanted to share about it. A few weeks ago, my aunty sent me $50 for Christmas, and a well wish. Well, i've had huge resentments against my aunty, doesn't matter what for. I HAD been praying for her recently, so I thought 'what could it hurt to ring her up and say 'thanks'?'
Well, we spoke on the phone, and she totally triggered me. That night, I had huge anger and resentment!!! Since then, i've been practicing letting go and forgiveness.
Anyway, a few days later, I really wanted to drink and drug. All I could see was one joint, and two drinks, and how fantastic that would feel. Which it would - but it never ends there! I'm an alcoholic, I've nearly killed myself on alcohol before.
So, I've been doing meetings every day since then, and praying, and getting on my knees, and reading the literature, and going to church, and talking to people, and listening to 'forgiveness' CDs.
I felt like drinking again last Friday evening - I was at a women's AA meeting and didn't feel I belonged. So I told a friend how I felt - she's 20 years sober but i knew her in hospital all that time ago. She was fantastic, and saved my sorry arse for the night. She made me laugh at myself, and my resentments, and my 'typical alcoholic' thinking.
I really needed to have a good laugh.
Now it's Monday night - did another great meeting tonight.
I'm shook up that i suddenly felt like drinking again, after being OK for quite a while.
I've come to appreciate AA more than I used to - as something I need for survival. I know there's other ways to do it, and some people stay sober on their own - I couldn't POSSIBLY stay sober on my own.
Happy new year to everyone here.
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I invited Bill to have dinner with me last Sunday. He wasn't willing to drive 7 hours to mid Michigan and teased me with his beautiful ribs!!! So, of course I ate alone and had cedar salmon
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
I wish the best for all members to enjoy a safe and sober, happy and serene 2013.
Love to you all.
Happy New Year from the USA
P
Happy Sober New Year to you too.
I need my AA friends too, as well as my God and my spiritual path to keep me happy and sober. I found, like you, it is impossible for an alcoholic like me to stay sober on her own.
Now I haven't experienced a need or want to drink in years but I accept it will probably happen one day, probably out of the blue. This is because I am an alcoholic and I have a progressive illness that will be with me to the day I die. I was recently with a friend who has far more years of sobriety and this had happened to him too.
The important message in this, I believe, is work through any fear associated and take the necessary action if/when it happens.
So glad you shared this from the heart - it may have helped more people than you know see in a sober New Year!
Two years ago I woke up (came to) in a lovely home in Clovely. I had gotten hideously drunk New Years eve with my husband, and three little kids at a friends party. Stumbled home with the family and fell asleep "reading" to the kids. Almost threw up and passed out on a run I tried to do New Year's day on the beach. All that beauty and family who loves me around me and I was a hopeless drunk.
I too let myself believe again and again that I'd get that comfort, happiness, etc from a few drinks (of course I'd have 10 but anyway...)...
So grateful I don't have to live like that anymore.
And yes, its great to have a program and women to depend on for help, honest perspectives, understanding, etc. My own best thinking was frightening.
Again, happy sober new year y'all.
A very sober new years day is wished for all. I am one grateful alcoholic (and I remember thinking I would never feel that way).
The biggest asset I had for helping that process was AA and the 12 steps. Appreciating AA and taking advantage of everything it has to offer helps enormously.
Happy New Year to everyone. I wish you all sobriety, serenity and joy.
That "mental blank spot" when it came to alcohol hit me when I was 6 months sober. Like you, it scared me to death. More than anything I didn't want to drink. I'd been living on self will and without a spiritual connection, I was gonna be a dead duck.
I walked into a meeting that night and got honest about who I'd been using as a higher power(my husband). It wasn't what I'd planned on saying since I was so good at deflecting attention by acting like I was "ok". The truth just came out of my mouth. No kidding, the obsession and fear lifted and on the way home I had my first dialogue with a spiritual entity.
Once I got honest about me, I was able to really take the steps with my sponsor. The obsession with alcohol has not returned since.
nellie, taking the steps with a sponsor to guide you through works. It really does. The meetings are great. I love the fellowship of AA. I know today though that just meetings without doing the steps is a dicey proposition.