Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Hi, it's 11pm here in Sydney, on 31-12-12, and I just want to wish everyone on this site a safe, sober new year.
I nearly went back out, about 10 days ago. I''m still shaky, and just wanted to share about it. A few weeks ago, my aunty sent me $50 for Christmas, and a well wish. Well, i've had huge resentments against my aunty, doesn't matter what for. I HAD been praying for her recently, so I thought 'what could it hurt to ring her up and say 'thanks'?'
Well, we spoke on the phone, and she totally triggered me. That night, I had huge anger and resentment!!! Since then, i've been practicing letting go and forgiveness.
Anyway, a few days later, I really wanted to drink and drug. All I could see was one joint, and two drinks, and how fantastic that would feel. Which it would - but it never ends there! I'm an alcoholic, I've nearly killed myself on alcohol before.
So, I've been doing meetings every day since then, and praying, and getting on my knees, and reading the literature, and going to church, and talking to people, and listening to 'forgiveness' CDs.
I felt like drinking again last Friday evening - I was at a women's AA meeting and didn't feel I belonged. So I told a friend how I felt - she's 20 years sober but i knew her in hospital all that time ago. She was fantastic, and saved my sorry arse for the night. She made me laugh at myself, and my resentments, and my 'typical alcoholic' thinking.
I really needed to have a good laugh.
Now it's Monday night - did another great meeting tonight.
I'm shook up that i suddenly felt like drinking again, after being OK for quite a while.
I've come to appreciate AA more than I used to - as something I need for survival. I know there's other ways to do it, and some people stay sober on their own - I couldn't POSSIBLY stay sober on my own.
Happy new year to everyone here.
I nearly went back out, about 10 days ago. I''m still shaky, and just wanted to share about it. A few weeks ago, my aunty sent me $50 for Christmas, and a well wish. Well, i've had huge resentments against my aunty, doesn't matter what for. I HAD been praying for her recently, so I thought 'what could it hurt to ring her up and say 'thanks'?'
Well, we spoke on the phone, and she totally triggered me. That night, I had huge anger and resentment!!! Since then, i've been practicing letting go and forgiveness.
Anyway, a few days later, I really wanted to drink and drug. All I could see was one joint, and two drinks, and how fantastic that would feel. Which it would - but it never ends there! I'm an alcoholic, I've nearly killed myself on alcohol before.
So, I've been doing meetings every day since then, and praying, and getting on my knees, and reading the literature, and going to church, and talking to people, and listening to 'forgiveness' CDs.
I felt like drinking again last Friday evening - I was at a women's AA meeting and didn't feel I belonged. So I told a friend how I felt - she's 20 years sober but i knew her in hospital all that time ago. She was fantastic, and saved my sorry arse for the night. She made me laugh at myself, and my resentments, and my 'typical alcoholic' thinking.
I really needed to have a good laugh.
Now it's Monday night - did another great meeting tonight.
I'm shook up that i suddenly felt like drinking again, after being OK for quite a while.
I've come to appreciate AA more than I used to - as something I need for survival. I know there's other ways to do it, and some people stay sober on their own - I couldn't POSSIBLY stay sober on my own.
Happy new year to everyone here.
I was not too successful at staying sober just on meetings no matter how many meetings I went to but it was when, as gr8ful2b just described, I learned about mental blank spots that it fell into place why I had drank again even when I really did not want to.
Anyhow, I hope you have a great 2013. It's cool you got through okay.