Yep it’s very addictive. I hope you find sobriety soon. Don’t get stuck on what was. It is the next time that will work. 1-2

Get back in the program. I know someone who came back in and identified as a newcomer after blowing 25 years recently.

One of the stories that has kept me straight all this time was a friend who had 14 went out. Booze and coke. He’s got 12 again. His story sticks with me.

Glad you’re here. Sorry you’re drinking again. I hope you find your way back to sobriety.

It is so lonely. I was so distant with myself and the ones I loved. Having an intimate relationship with ourselves is quite a feat. A bittersweet dance sometimes. We all need to remember that we’re enough. Breathe in abundance, breathe out generosity. It’s waiting for us in every moment, we just need to reach out. Thanks for sharing

How much are you drinking? There is a group called moderation Management for controlled drinking.
If you are drinking again it's a sign you need to change something? What is that something?

if you can find the pep talk that Rocky gave his son in one of his movies it might encourage you. There is no nutritional reason to drink

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mk82j1jQw_8

sorry to hear about your relapse my friend. for me, it was forgetting over time that I was powerless when I drank or got high that got me into trouble. I'm sure you know that. staying in a program with recovering alcoholics is a must to assure I don't forget. i only go once a week now after nearly three years of sobriety, but it's enough to keep the message of my addiction alive. glad you found us and hope you don't let this the last six months discourage you from coming back to sobriety. stay in touch!

I am 54 yrs old...I feel yoir pain..I have drank most of my adult life...here I am with very serious liver scirroses with possible death on my near future without a transplant..its a hard truth I now live with...please find the strength to start your sobriety over..I will have you in my prayers...

I can only imagine what you are feeling, but I am sure it is a feeling you wish was not happening.

I think the correct way of looking at your relapse would be to survey the powerlessness of it becoming a threat, it actually happening, and now what to do next.

I know recently I cut out avenues of spiritual development and helping others for an agenda to build wealth and serve money. At the time I thought I was doing the right thing. I now have knowledge of what not to do to share with others coming after me. Don't let your relapse exist in vain, use it to help others, the literature says something along the lines of, if looked at correctly our dark past can create bright futures for others in terms of what not to do.

Lately the fact that I do not have a family of my own, do not have a real career I can feel fulfilled by, and am alone all the time has brought me to a point of despair. For me despair equals depression, but I know participating in serving, and playing the role God needs me to, which will include helping young people not make the same mistakes I did, gives me hope.

I have to get rid of my resentment though, and they block me from fulfilling the wants and wishes of my higher power. So you might want to start there, with a commitment to letting the relapse help someone who will need to get past the 14 year mark one day, and also to see if there was a resentment you had yet to give to God for clarity that catalyzed the false feeling of need to drink.

Thank you for your honesty.

I’m 50 yrs old. Mom and wife. My family doesn’t know I’m drinking everyday. I hide my empty beer cans and bottles of vodka in my home office. Then discreetly put them out on garbage day. I think about my problem all day long while functioning and running my family owned business. I would really like to have someone to talk to (email) and get some support to stop. If anyone has time to talk please message me here. Thanks and God Bless. I wish you all well.