When we draw near to him, he discloses himself to us.
Today I woke up, and automatically was overwhelmed by anxiety, and resentment, that I had too much to do, and not enough time to do it. Then I started to meditate, leading with, "God what do I have to do today" and a calm came over me in where I could see clearly, God has not one demand of me today.
I then was able to spiritually accept that existence is much greater than 24 hours in a day, and that I have such a loving God disclosing himself to me, I could do nothing at all today, and he would still accept and love me unconditionally.
I have an ego, that only uses conditions, to declare if I am worthy of love or not. That is the problem. I have an ego, that thinks it makes a good God or decision maker, and Thank God, for the creation of AA, because the 11th step quieted the ego, and now I know a deeper truth that I don't have to pressure, over-work, or do anything but have a relationship with God in where he provides ALL THE ANSWERS, IF I DRAW NEAR TO HIM AND ASK FOR HIS HELP.
Very simple, yet even more so powerful.
With great sadness, Duke passed away this afternoon at the Vet's office. They found a large tumour in his stomach.They only gave him a couple of days.I made a choice, so he would no longer suffer. I got to spend about an hour with him & held him as he went to sleep.He is beside his brother Fred now & god will take care of them until we meet again.Thank you for your prayers.Hugs!Brooke
I think I'm a alcoholic. I'm not quite sure. I can go days without drinking. But it's my go to when things get bad. It's stupid how I started. I work night shift. That messed with my sleep cycle. On my days off I have to be mom and wife and maid and cook so I have to get back on a normal schedule. Then switch back to 12 hour nights when I work. I could never find anything that helped me sleep on...