Thank you all for your encouraging words. I am meeting with an attorney tomorrow and am hoping that getting a plan of action in place will aleviate some of the severe anxiety I've been having. I am really hoping that one day I can look back on this experience and feel ok maybe even grateful. But for now, I'm suffocating in panic, shame, guilt, anger, anxiety, did I say shame already?

Oh. And hey day 6 sober.. have had physical cravings to drink, but just the thought of actually picking up a drink disgusts and repels me emotionally. So I'm standing strong on that front. I guess that's something.

I got one of those about 15 years ago. Yup, it's not a joke anymore. Here in Canada they are really tough with that. You have to pay $400.00 or so for a teaching session, then pay about $1.500 to have that machine you blow into before you can start your car. then you get a year or so suspension, and when you do get your licence back, the insurance is sky high. I lost everything at that time. I couldn't do my work, I started using here and there and lost my girlfriend, the place I lived in. I still haven't got my licence back. I do have to work on that, but yea, it's very hard. if I were you I would pay a good lawyer or something to see what they can do. I didn't get one, and they came down harder.
Yes, you feel bad now and your scared. That's pretty normal. we seem to never think of the consequences when were drinking. sorry but this is just something your going to have to go through. there won't be any easy way out. Your thinking good too about stopping drinking. All this fun that it's bringing to you...It's just not worth it. sorry pal, I wish I could say some good things to relieve your pain, but I can't. Just fess up to it, and be a man. Deal with it. You will be allright, but yea, your going to pay. Try not to worry. Just deal with today. When you need to deal with this, then deal with that day. Stick around recovery. It is a lot better, and easier. Have a good day.

Just remember to take a deep breath when you're feeling panicked and take it one step at a time. First step is to quit drinking, and congrats on being sober! Second, would be to get a lawyer, which it looks like you've got covered...see how great you're doing already!?

Your lawyer will give you your next steps. Don't look ahead, focus on one task at a time. If you try to think of everything at once, that's when you'll start to panic again. And, of course, you've got all of us to talk to when you're angry, sad, ashamed ext. We've got your back!

Just keep it one day at a time, one task at a time. If it's your first DUI, and you show the judge you're in AA already, he will probably be lenient. So, chin up, buttercup! You've got this!

BTDT myself- last June. It felt overwhelming at first. The mess I'd made. Not only did I get caught, I wrecked my car. It was awful. I spent the only night I ever hope to in a jail cell just wishing I would die.

If this is your bottom, count yourself blessed. You sound ready to pursue sustained sobriety. Do whatever you can, get whatever help you can, ask for help from wherever you can get it.

Almost a year later, I am still cleaning up the wreckage of that night. But with every step I take, I feel a bit lighter and better.

This will pass and perhaps at some point in the future you will be able to share this with someone and it will help them.