Hi Clair .

Ramble as much as you want. i for one am a good listener. Sobriety works but not as fast as alcohol. There are many changes going on at the moment but you will get through them. Talking is a good start and not bottling up our feelings. Our heads will tell us anything but don't believe a word it's saying listen to your heart it wont lie.Keep the meetings up and if you have a sponsor talk to them.If things don't get better soon you may need outside help.

I will prayer for you ..
God Bless...
Lionel.

Ramble on girl and keep going to your meetings... I found my self going through the same thing as I too am on week 3... I think is because I felt that I have stalled in my progress in my steps ... So I am going over them... I have only worked on steps 1, 2, and 3 My sponsor wants me to wait for a while till I do step 4... I hope this helps

Ramble away Claire, we got big ears! haha! It aint all sunshine & roses huh? It will get better though, just keep hangin on. Try to just relax and breathe. Take a bubble bath or read somewhere quietly if you can. Tomorrow is a new day...it will get easier. :) Hold on tight, it's so worth it girl.

seeing me pyscologist tomorow. so will talk to her.
dunno y i feel this way
its jus coming over me like a fog
a big black fog
and i want it to go awy
to blow away
out of my head
out of my thoughts
to get lost forever in the wilderness

xxx

Part of the trick for me was learning to not analyse those thoughts quite so much.

don is like me-I try to not analyze everything including moods. It is funny claire-as I step back and look at my moods and depression lately, I see such a clear pattern of feeling horrid one week out of the month due to hormones. I just like to rely on the notion that it is just a passing thing-and it will get better.

It is ok to feel down in the dumps, your body is re-adjusting to being booze free. Give yourself time, and don't let being down in the dumps keep you down in the dumps. Keep busy!

You know the worst thing for us is to sit and think. Our minds are used to wrong thinking. That's why your in recovery. If your just sitting, phone someone and tell them you don't know what to do. When I sit by myself and just think. I can get myself into a real mess, and before I know it my mind telling me, "What's the use." Then I drink. If you want recovery, and to change things you need to get busy and do things. Nothing changes if you don't do things differant. Hang in there, and get a sponsor to talk to.