Post what you want, may help someone.

I felt just as you post yesterday, happy as fuck it has pasted. just keep pushing through it, take a break from AA, reading, obsessing about all the recovery shit....gets real fucking old i know.

why not do something for Anna? gotta be something you like to do that you havent done in quite sometime. go some where alone, something not recovery based.

do someting you normally dont allow yourself to do(not drinking) but something that is taboo, does that make sense? it does to me in a way, hell, sometimes i confuse myself.

with deep caring-

you will hear many say that you are right where you are suppose to be....heck they must like to punish themselves.

For many many ppl it is not that hard (myriad of reasons to debate about, so what)

Please have a complete physical..... your hormones could be off, your thyroid, your blood sugar, Vit D levels do amazing things.

Remember your body has had alot of abuse

Get a winter check-up and see how that body is functioning.

Could be garder variety depression....which after being on meds a few months...you will be off of it.

Your body and psyche has been damaged.....it's OK we get better.
Liver panel too....that can really make you tired

Thinkin of you

If someone told you getting sober was easy, they lied. It's worth it though.

another thing, i really sat and thought on the way home after i got off the phone with my lil' sis.

i thought, what has booze ever done from me? yea, it gave me a false sense of identity, courage, respect, freedom.....but it's all temporary. sitting in the moment fucking SUCKS, i get that, but drinking wasnt going to change the way i was feeling yesterday, it may have for a few hours, but once i woke up, shit would have been ten-fold. I would have had a really shitty day.

i woke up late, a little aggravated, but better than waking up in sweats, head aches, thinking how the fuck i was going to cover the collateral damage from teh night before.

keep pushing, that's all you can do, that all any of us can do in the early stages.

May E.T. be with you.....he is my higher power for today, phone home

Have you found a sponsor yet?

Checking your vitamin D levels is a good idea. You should also make sure you're taking a B-complex supplement, because it can help as an overall "pick-me-up" and your body tends to be depleted after years of drinking. Mindlight had some great suggestions, but I'll add one more: What do you like to do for fun? (and don't say drink! lol).

I think you like soccer....is there an indoor league? A club? You're correct in recognizing that non-stop immersion in Alcoholic literature will drive you crazy. I think you need to get yourself out for some sober fun.

Also, quit looking at it as being sober, that is so damn cliche' if you ask me.

It's like when people say they are on a diet, diets dont work, but life style changes do.

So, look at it just as that, a life style change, a change for the better

wow.. all great responses on here.. and ya know what??? Feel like shit... it's ok to just have that down in the dumps poor me kind of day now and then... Just don't let it pull ya down too far.. I agree with Rummy.. If you are exhausted and angry take time out.. do something special just for you.. even as simple as a night hot bath and painting your pretty little toesies.. Start small.. you have been doing so well.. and also like rumm said.. Even though your in a pissy mood now.. grasp how much better if feels waking up sober and how your confidence and self esteem is growing.. it really is.. give yourself a break.. don't be so hard on YOU.. your a wonderful person who is very intelligent and so kind an helping to others.. and not to mention that kick ass funny side to ya... hang tough girlie.. This too shall pass! Thinking of you ~

Cabledude, are there any other opinions other than yours?

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just DO-feel- and BE,whatever you want today.Just not drunk:)sherry

ya..just cause thier leg is hanging off and bleeding...Make darn sure they go to a meeting.

Many religions do that....are you against medical care? or just as you see fit?

I understand cabledude's point, but I do tire of the sarcasm. Getting sober encompasses the physical, mental, and spiritual. There's no reason to leave any of it out. If your body is lacking something, there's nothing wrong with addressing the issue.

And if your brain needs activity that isn't related to AA literature, there's nothing wrong with an interesting diversion.

Amen on that Rummy...Talk about getting old.

Yep, anything to get ya thru another day.. Midnight is right about vitamin D3.. they actually recommend people, especially in my neck of the woods to take extra.. they are linking cancers and other illnesses to this as we are so far away from equator we don't get the right amount... This will not obviously keep you sober but it could help balance out some moods.. best of luck ~