I remember just before I went through outpatient treatment, It was one problem after another. My friends and family had all left me, I lost my job and I was in debt so far, I had no choice but to file bankruptcy!

Then my wife got pissed at me which is another story, and she called the cops on me. Long story short, I got a police escort to detox. That was the best thing that ever happened to me! I knew I needed help but I was too afraid to ask for it. Fortunately, someone else made that decision for me.

After detox, I went through an IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) followed by 3 months of group counseling and through all the counseling I received, regular attendance at AA meetings were a requirement. I got a sponsor and I did the steps. I have since branched off onto other forms or spirituality because my search for meaning is never ending. I meditate every day and talk to my Higher Power regularly.

That was 12 plus years ago. Today I have a great life and I have never been happier.

We have all been in your shoes. My only suggestion is this: All you have to do is stay sober. If you do nothing else just stay sober, one day at a time. Then watch the miracles happen!

God Bless

You haven’t lost everything. Your life is still with you. And with that can come choices. I understand that they are limited at this point in your life but that can change with effort. And sobriety.
I’m sure you know this as you are admitting the problem to yourself and are taking the only step to heal. Stop the drinking.

T.I.M.E.
This I Must Earn.
Unfortunately, it's going to take awhile, and if you're anything like me...you're not going to like it. But hang in there, do the work, and watch your life change for the better, albeit SLOWLY.

Im so sorry your feeling so lost. It must be gut wrenching to have lost everything and not be able to be with or there for your mom. I am not to that point but I cannot stop drinking. Everyday I say its the last day or I am just going to. have a little to stop the shakes and make the headache go away. I will pray for your struggle......good luck and god bless

To GraemeOne; I can't imagine what you could have done to completely alienate everyone in your life to where you are not even "allowed" to visit or stay with your Mother. Looking at eviction from where you live, with no place to go. You are just NOW waking up to the fact that you are in serious trouble; it didn't occur to you while these things were happening? Sounds like the "rock bottom" we hear so much about is in your near future. I wish I could offer some helpful suggestions, but I don't have any. Except to go to the ER; you'll be locked down for 72 hours but perhaps there are resources they can bring to you for a roof over your head, or something. You have to really WANT help or it won't work. Best of luck to you; let us know how you're doing?

There is nothing wrong with asking for help. You can go to the hospital and explain your situation. You are never alone and there is help out there. Do not be afraid to admit that you are struggling. I once had only the clothes on my back, yet rallied and found the strength to put one foot in front of the other. You can change your life! There is proof that sobriety works, and I am that living proof. It won't be easy, but it is definitely possible. Imagine finally laying your head down at night without any guilt or worry.

Just wanted to know how you are?

its shit mate pretty much going through the same thing only person i can talk to is mum but she lives in another country now just cant see a way out of this

Sounds like you need professional help and a new life. I was in that situation about six years ago. I ended up going to the psych ward, and getting honest with the Doctor about my drinking and drug use, and they offered for me to go to a free rehab. That free rehab helped me and then offered to get me into a halfway house. While at the halfway house the halfway house allowed me to go visit my parents (who were so relieved I was getting help from others). I also was able to go to AA meetings while in rehab and at the halfway house and I met a nice man in AA who helped me get a car, a place to stay, and advised me on how to start a career and keep a job. That was six years ago and today I am a free man with a way to manage life that no longer relies on alcohol or drugs to make him feel sane.

I feel your pain. Everybody hates me now.

Alcoholics are selfish and self centered. Why would anyone like that type of person? The alcohol was the mask I hid behind because I was a self centered a hole that used everyone for my pleasure.

I stopped the booze July 10, 2012. It’s been seven plus years and I admit it is tough sometimes but I try to help others and not be a self centered a hole.

Imagine a life that is worth living. You are worth that life. Find some other alcoholics and ask for help. That is the way to begin again.

It’s like trying to lift myself up out of a hole with my belt loops. I just pull and pull and no progress. I had to ask for a hand