Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Gratefulee
Gratefulee

Hello all... i just joined this group today.  It's my first attempt at seeking help.  I HAVE to stop drinking but I don't know if I'm "there" yet.  I know everyone has their own "bottom" but I don't know if I've hit mine yet.  I also don't want to wait to hit mine.  I am a functioning alcoholic but it's starting to get me depressed.  Every morning I struggle to get out of bed because I'm hungover and tired.  I pass out by like 9pm but then am wide awake at 2 and can't fall back to sleep.  My drinking has gotten way out of control.  I have recently started hiding it from my husband and as soon as he's out of sight, I am swigging right from the bottle!  I've never done this before in my life.  I've been a heavy drinker for many, many years but now I feel like I can't wait to get home so that I can get my "fix".  My son has been in FL in rehab for alcohol and drugs for two years.  I am so beyond ashamed of myself I just want to die sometimes.  He knows that I drink but thinks it's just socially.  I drink to get drunk.  Period.  I have tried several times to stop on my own but honestly get bored out of my skull.  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.  

sobriety26
sobriety26
You may be more than surprised at how many people know of your alcoholism.
Gratefulee
Gratefulee
venus28 - I understand how you feel. I would take swigs from the vodka bottle every chance I got when my husband wasn't looking. I decided one day that I HAD to stop the madness. It's been 28 days so far and I'm not dying without it. What keeps me going is that if I feel like having a drink, I think about the afterwards part of it and say to myself "then what?" Meaning, then what am I going to do? Start all over, feel like crap, be mad at myself, get depressed, go to work hungover. It would just start the cycle all over again. Just say to yourself those two simple words "then what?". I hope this helps.... Oh and I almost forgot the very important key for me. I got a book called "30-Day Sobriety Solution" and it is really good. I've only read about 50 pages so far but it really really is helping. Good luck to you..
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
Just so others know, you can get that book, ( 30-Day Sobriety Solution) on amazon, used for, $2.41.

Here is the link:

https://www.amazon.com/30-Day-Sobriety-Solution-Drinking-Privacy/dp/147679295X/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1453143170&sr=1-1&keywords=30+day+sobriety+solution
stickywick
stickywick
*you* are a functioning alcoholic? Really? So what is functional to you?
Wanting to die, passing out at 9 PM, not sleeping through a night, drinking to get drunk, hiding booze from your husband, so on and so on. that sounds like dysfunctional behaviour and alcoholic drinking -- not functioning.
How bad do you want it to get before you get serious and get sober? You can always hit a bottom but frankly, sounds like you are close enough, so why not stop digging?

I was doing some of what you were doing before I got sober. I would have described myself as functional too. In hindsight I had been dysfunctional for most my drinking --- I was just also dillusional. Dillusion + Dysfunction + alcoholism == excuses to keep drinking.

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sobriety26
sobriety26
I would suggest that you need to bring a sober companion with you but I doubt that you know any. l My other suggestion is to not go or go but with a big gulp of soda with you. Either way you have a long journey ahead of you so let us hear about it afterwards.
Impermanence
Impermanence
Your bottom is when you decide to do something about your alcoholism. You are there now. Go for it. You have the power.
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