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Hazel79 05/09/2010

Hi All!

I used to be a regular Daily Strength active member, but just recentley decided to come back on here for an issue that I feel needs attention.

Has anyone ever experienced a black out with alcohol? I was out on Friday night. I remember consuming a ton of drinks, however, I woke up on Saturday morning not remembering how I got home - thankfully I am safe and sound, all is in order. However, I am very frightened and concerned about not being able to remember - and feel now I am not going to touch a drop of alcohol again. I have never felt this way before, such utter fear. Questions are arising - and I have been researching blackouts on google and have got some good insight, such as the fact that you are technically still conscious, however, the blood alcohol levels are spiked so high it cuts of your brain receptors responsible for memory. I feel sick to my stomach right now, with not having those memories and being out of control.

Any others insights would be great..

Thanks

Rick8 05/09/2010

The black outs got progressively worse for me in the duration of how long they lasted. Those are moments of my life that are gone forever basically. Life is to damn short to not even remember it, It's good it scared you. It is not something to be taken lightly.

okiyoe1 05/09/2010

Ditto to That!!!

jamesross 05/09/2010

Try to relaxe a little. Black outs are very scary to most people. I had a few before. Not sure exactly how they come about, besides drinking. My last one really scared me too. I had a friend comming to vist with me from the States. It was supposed to have been a very special time. It was a lady I met through here that I had come to care for very much and seeing each other was supposed to be very special. We had talked of this a long time, and I was excited about seeing her. Anyway, a day or two before she came I started drinking. Don't know why I did, I just did. Anyway, it just continued and she came. I still don't remember a hell of a lot. Only vague bits and peices. She said i wasn't acting stupid or anything, thank God, but I just don't remember most of it. I don't even remember what she really looked like. The whole time she was here, two days, I was mostly in a blackout, and only know bits and pieces. It was very embarasing, and disturbing to me. Normally I don't have blackouts, but on this ocassion I had gotten into licquer. After she went back home. I was trying to figure out all we had done. Anyway, we talked on the phone and she filled me in. I feel so stupid that I can't even remember what she looked like. I do know she was very pretty, but I can't picture her. That really disgusted me tho, and made me really start taking recovery a lot more seriously. I do know I'm an alcohol, and I just can't drink. Best thing to do is learn from it and move on. Don't waste time beating yourself up about it. Your an alcoholic. That's not an excuse, but you should deffinetly know that now. No sense trying to figure out anything about it.It happened, but now move on. Put that energy into what you can do now, and throw yourself into recovery. Wish you all the best. James

stickywick 05/10/2010

I've never had a black out, but, I have certainly fallen asleep in my own bed drunk, so passed out. I've also said some things that I didnt remember, or had a conversation I totally forgot, until the person told me they had already *had* that conversation with me! This happened a few times before I quit drinking. it was a MAJOR wakeup call to me.
Suggest you STOP now.

deleted_user 05/10/2010

Yes, I have had.....um...................was I saying something?

(ducking)

Bad joke, I know, sorry...Anyway, my whole last year or so of drinking was one long string of blackouts. I only remembered the first 10 minutes or so of drinking, then poof. It was a hellish daily cycle of starting to drink, then waking up in a hospital/jail/CT scanner/stranger's bed/whatever, walking out of hospital/jail/whatever, starting to drink, waking up in hospital/jail, etc. I couldn't do anything anymore without OD'ing on it, alcohol or whatever (I know this is an alcohol group). This was a very big thing to me, because it was only at the latest part of my disease that this happened. I used to be the one everyone would assign to remember things for them because I always seem to keep my cognizant functions intact when drinking. Scary.

I remember hearing somewhere that blackouts were a symptom of alcoholism versus "lesser" forms of problem drinking. I wonder if this is still true.

deleted_user 05/10/2010

What more do you want to hear???? That a black out won't happen the next time??????? Heck I could drink 1-2 drinks or beer and black out for the rest of the night and many times it would take me a case of beer to black out -

You THINK you are safe and sound and YOU may physically be, but no telling what your actions were, the words you lashed out at people, if any, and THANK GOD - you didn't wake up in a drunk tank from a black out - by killing a family while you were drinking and driving or hurting somebody while drinking or driving or causing property damage while drinking and drivings - sounds like by the Grace of God you made it home -

I would be thinking more along the lines - what the hell do I need to do to stop drinking.

Just a little confused on what you are seeking in this post- a pat on the back, a little assurance it won't happen again? What?

PEace!

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