so again i'm drinking to much, starting to fall back into my old routine. it started recently when i began feeling lonely and depressed.. i'm living with my boyfriend and his parents and have no job because of my condition.. i was sober for 5 months and felt great but then had no one to talk to or hangout with but my bf.. then started to causally drink again and low and behold my friends started to imerge. i was having a great time controlling my drinking being social.. now it's got the best of me... i've become sad and lonely mostly because of the guilt of drinking and wanting to drink everyday .. but going through a day without it is so hard and depressing. i've done it a few times a week and i know after the third day it's usually when i start to feel "normal" again, but then there's all these social events that keep me wanting to drink.. my bf is going nuts about it bc he doesn't want me to gom back to the way i was.. which is slowly happening.. i don't like AA so i'm stuck.. i can't talk to my friends or parents bc i don't want to worry them.. help
Anybody ever had success with getting sex off the brain. 4 months abstinent and I want it to keep going. I know reverting back will not make me feel good. For the most part I do ok. But occassionaly, like today, the urges are quite strong and take a lot of effort and focus. Also hard to find things to keep you preoccupied during lockdown, glad it is ending soon. I'm impressed I have stayed...