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Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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after the fact

Ashley8888
Ashley8888
Okay, so I relapsed last night....a "friend" from NY was in town last night and I messed up....I almost knew it was going to happen....BUT you know all I can think about now.....all the "advise" or kind words I have said on this board to others who have done the same....I have to keep loving me, learn from my mistake and know I can never do it again....well with the ONE DAY AT A TIME.....I hate alcohol and what it does to me....I can not treat myself to a new book because I am paying off dept but last night I spent 150 dollars....I hate what drinking makes me become....
If you want to read about my night, all in the journal but please tell me that I can keep my 62 days sober minus one....sorry that is where I am at....I messed up now I have to pick up the pieces and get back on track....I can do this....I will not give up on me...
anyways...I am so grateful that I have this outlet....thank you all for being here....
Ashley8888
Ashley8888
Thank you all for your support and understanding.....I guess I am at day two now, and still feel physically awful, I left work early today...not good but I think I learned a valuable lesson....I wanted so bad to hang on to my friends, and tis particular one is deff. an alcoholic....I dont think he was even going to come see if it did not involve going out...I love him but he is not a real friend and I am letting go of him....it isnt hard because he lives in NY....but it goes for all my old drinking friends...I have to let them go....they are not positive aspect of my life....I hate sounding so harsh but I do know it is the truth that I must except....
I also learned that I really need to try to go to AA, give it a try....I've been around it all my life but never actually tried to go for me...
anyways, thank you all so much....I really needed some harsh facts that you all gave me, and to see my drinking for exactly what it is....I am an alcoholic who can NOT drink like a normal person...
I wont sit around and beat myself up, I WILL start taking more actions to fix my problem though....
deleted_user
deleted_user
One little observation; at your age, it's common for a lot of your old friends (from your late teens & early 20's) to fall by the wayside. You're becomeing more mature, and so are some of your friends,.....and still others refuse to grow up. A lot of the friendships that we have in our younger years, revolve around "being crazy". At some point, everyone has to move on though. I still have a few friends from that era of my life, but not many. We just became different people.
nodp2day
nodp2day
words here cannot express how proud I am for you. consider yourself hugged.