Welcome Sophia!! Go ahead and give AA another try -- what is there to lose? I have had my share of the experiences that you are sharing. I can't take any more of those days. Puking in the sink because I could not make it to the toilet. Matter of fact i think there were times that I peed and threw up in the kitchen sink. I either had to do something different or I was gonna die drunk.

Got to the point where I was convinced that I could not control my drinking, and that I was a real alcoholic. It's been 3 holidays since I had to do it like that.

Please keep posting!! Welcome!!! Glad that you are here!!

I also am new here!! I understand how feel!!
I have done that alot also....
"Today is a gift, that's why its called the present"
Thank you for sharing

Welcome!! I can so relate. Constantly doing something embarrassing and not remembering. Hiding from people for days afterwards. Never intending to get AS drunk as I would inevitably get. Always.

It will only get worse. Get back to AA and give it another shot. :-) Make 2011 a year worth remembering... in a good way.

All the best.

~Chris

Hi, SophiasMom2010!!!
Ugh!!! I remember times like that!!! And I hope that I never do it again!
I don't do AA. For me, it was mainly getting fed up with myself and my drinking. I do good if I just stay away from that first drink but, boy!!! If I have that first drink, I don't quit until I pass out and I almost always have blackouts. And I've had some really excellent, individual counseling, which also helped.
If you want to quit, I wish you all the luck in the worldl I hope coming to this site helps you!!!
By the way, I am so very sorry for your loss. I can't imagine how much pain you are in. My heart goes out to you. (((((Hugs)))))

Hi Sophia, Have a read of Pats post up today. I tried it all and failed. came a stage I couldn't go on anymore and nor did I want to. I hope you make the decision to get help sooner rather than later. Reaching out here's a good start. Welcome to the group to you and Linz.

Welcome. Keep coming around. Hope you get some support.

I didn't want to keep embarrassing myself and all other areas of my life were suffering too. I have questioned my "readiness" to quit many times. My life was going to fall apart though - it was only a matter of time. Ready or not, I had to get help. I am in a much better place today than a year ago. I am still a work in progress.

Good luck.

I am glad that the two newcomers have posted here...I too got way too drunk on Tiquilla....a friend on Guam always said Tiquilla means jail....I am glad to be sober today and did it because I did not want to be drunk any longer....if you tried AA Sophiasmom then maybe it was a welcome to the program..>I went to AA several times over several years before I decided AA could help me...and when I did that AA did what it does and helped this poor alchie get sober...

I hope that you come here share and enjoy soberiety here....hugs bill

When you really begin to question your own behavior - that's a good thing -means you are realizing there is a problem and when you realize the problem is real, then you can do something about it.

Welcome and Peace!

OMG I nearly died years ago from Tequila..I was sick for days. I did give up Tequila but kept drinking until blacking out so often ultimately ending up drinking and driving with a 2 year old in the car. I hope Sophia's mom you don't have to travel that road. If you love yourself and your baby you will go to any lengths to quit. Reach out for help and support, it can be done and you can have a wonderful life sober.

I did stuff like that and the worst part is they never let you live it down. You'll be hearing that story for years. If you say your not ready to quit then your not. For me when the pressure was on me to make a good impression I would blow it every time by drinking to much.

Part of you knows that alcohol will always come first and the other night just proves that. As I progressed in my alcoholism I had little or no control and lapsed into nightly blackouts. I set my fianc free because like you I felt I wasn't done yet. I was hurting him and my drinking was ruining our relationship.

No advice except apologize to him and his family. You may want to tell him you love him but you have a serious drinking problem.

Hi June, just checking to see how you are today. I read your profile and am sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. Keep reaching out. :}