sorry to hear how bad it is for u and how u need to medicate yourself with booze.....break ups r very painful and can really do a number on someone like us. have u ever gone to a dr and try going on meds? they can really help. when i was 23 i was downing beer first thing in the morning just to give me the courage to get out of the house and walk in my bad neighborhood. my bf at the time said i had a problem and dumped my booze down the sink. he really made me think and i went looking for help and got it.when i had break ups i use to feel just like u do right now. now i'm asuming u had a break up or has this person pass away? let me just say there is always hope, and things can change when u least exspect them to......i live long enough to know that my phobia's keep changing. i have had a good 20 good years now.....there r some things i can do now i thought for sure i'd never be able to do.....i say at my age,,,,give it time, and seriously think of going on meds....you feel like it's the end of your world right now, but give it time this too shall pass.......trust me i know how u feel.....my ex h. killed himself in 1999 and every time something awful like that happen to me i'd go backwards, but i'm so glad i got help and worked it out......u will get better, but u must take the time to heal the lost, stop beating yourself.....and please keep posting and let us know how your doing...

i dont know if this is progress but i decided that i cant sit still inside anymore. so i started my own exercise program, riding a bike indoors and started to change my diet as well. this might not help my phobia, but i think after a while my energy will return and possibly i might look into seeing a counselor.

Seeing a counselor would be a good thing. Exercise reduces stress and that's always a good thing, but it would probably even be more beneficial if you could do it outside or maybe even a gym. No where is too small to start. Not even around the block.

please reconsider chemicals. i used alcohol for 20 years to cover my fears about loss. i have lost a lot of people close to me and i have always had a vulnerability to anxiety because of it. alcohol is a depressant and it raises the chance of having a panic attack the next day. its a cycle that gets worse. i was there and it was horrible. i wish you the best.

you need to stop drink beer. drink beer do not help you with your prouble. drink beer can just get youin trouble. you should just take your time on going outside. you should try to gooutside and stand there for a minute and then maybe the next day you could add more minute to it. rember do not do too much at one time. baby step. i hope things get better for you. hugs

I agree with the others on the great advice. Beer is a depressant that feels good at the time but then you feel worse the next day. i am working on the same problem now and have cut back to a few drinks a day and make myself wait till about 8 or 9 so I don't drink all day. Not drinking all together is easier said than done..but cutting back slowly has worked for me and of course exercise is amazing. Like InVivo said it is probably a good idea to get a gym membership. It might be scary at first but then it will feel awesome and you might even meet a nice workout partner. Life is great and keep posting!

well i have decided to only drink once a week, during football season, usually during the games. i do sit on my front porch from time to time, so i do get outside, i just dont go anywhere. i dont have the money to buy a membership at a gym, i can only afford used workout stuff. thats why i stay at home.