Please excuse my ignorance if this is not considered agoraphobic but I have a constant feeling that people are watching me. Even when I am at home alone, in my head it feels as though there is an invisible audience watching my every move and laughing at me. This causes me to be uncomfortable in my own home. I don’t do silly things like dance or sing or get into positions that would make me look unattractive or “judge-able” so that this phantom audience won’t laugh at me. I know this stems from my childhood and teenage-hood when my mom and school friends would pick on me and laugh at how I acted and carried myself but now it never leaves. I feel like I must always impress an imaginary group of people that watch me all day long. I know that logically this is some form of paranoia but it stops me from going outside or opening blinds or going outside for a walk. I feel that everyone is watching me and all of my actions or moves are stupid and that no matter what I do I look stupid and someone will laugh at me and make fun of me. When I finally do go out in public due to my height and how I look people stare at me constantly. This makes me extremely uncomfortable and solidifies the thought of everyone laughing at me. I try to make myself look as normal as possible to not stand out but it doesn't help. This has discouraged me from going out at all and I feel like the outside world is crushing me & judging my every mood even though I'm alone and around no one.