SpiritualButterfly

About Me

Hi there, I am a 49yo Mother of 3 grown children and have many hobbies and interests. My husband is 3 years younger than myself and has been suffering from ongoing ED for about 17 years now. Initially I found it very difficult to deal with so he tried Viagra and injections which worked a couple of time only. It was completely devastating to say the least and I was convinced it was me and he no longer desired me. I got to the point where I wanted him to try with someone else just to check regardless of his reassurances that it wasn\'t me and it was a physical thing. Yes, him being with someone else in anyway would have caused me great pain, but I felt I just needed to know. I am glad he refused, . I had come to terms with it as we would express sexual intimacy in other ways. But in the last few months things have changed and become even worse. In the past, he would feel aroused and want to be intimate with me and kiss me but now he just feels nothing. He says he doesn\'t know why, that he loves me and really hates how he is making me feel. There are other things that make me wonder if there is a psychological component to this and he would benefit from speaking with a professional counsellor and I would be more than happy to go with him. Through out all of this I have tried to be supportive and not put demands on him and respect his feelings regarding any treatments he wouldn\'t feel comfortable. I know that it probably doesn\'t make him feel any better about himself but I have always reassured him that the sexual intimacy we do have is extremely pleasurable and more than satisfactory for me. He is no longer interested in any form of intimacy with me and I am so conf;used, hurt and devastated about this sudden change. It has begun to make me quite depressed and I spend a lot of time just crying. Just a couple of things to add here. He does masturbate. When I perform oral sex he will, quite a lot of the time, get quite hard but with these recent changes he is not longer interested and even told me he doesn\'t feel like kissing me because he can\'t tell the difference between affectionate kissing and passionate kissing. I\'m so lost and he doesn\'t like to discuss it and thinks I should understand from the brief answers he gives me which mostly leave me with more confusion and more questions. I need advice and help to try to understand this. There is a lot more to me and my life but right now this is why I am here.