Magenta111
Status: Trying to hang on
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- I haven't been on here in awhile, but I have done my "work" - wrote my "letter of amends" to my then 19 year old, apologizing for things that never happened. After almost 3 years, she came back to me. Things started out great, but now I know she...
- Today I received this email from ED. What do you think? It think it sounds like she wants money. Funny how I never refused to fill out her fasfa before, so this is a new accusation. Her previous reason (from 3 years ago) was that I was too...
- I found out last Saturday that my 82 year old father has been in the hospial since Tuesday. Mom didnt want to "worry the children" so she hadnt told me or my 3 siblings. We are all 45 plus. I will skip the details but it does not look great. I...
- Tomorrow is ED's 22nd birthday. I sent an email with a birthday photo from 8th grade (when I rented a limo for her and her friends and surprised her at school. Geez... what a horrible mother I was. (laughing). Other than HBD, I didn't write...
- I feel like an alcoholic relapsing into that black hole. ED's 22nd birthday is coming up, so she has been on my mind. It's now been over 2 years since I have heard her voice. I had a dream or nightmare about her and I can't remember what...
- I grew up in a family where I was never told I was loved. While I had a “nice” upper-middle class upbringing, I didn’t even know that was I was missing was being “loved” until well into my adulthood. I know this has impacted my...
- So I've spent the last year and a half following Dr. Coleman's advice. Wrote my letter of amends (approved by him) and send sweet, loving messages and photos via email (my only way to contact ED). Finally last week she emails me a photo of herself...
- While I don't have the time to watch much TV, tonight I'm watching America's Got Talent (AGT) in tears (even though I should be doing homework). Seeing these talented "unknowns" is so inspiring. For a brief moment, my pain is lifted. Just seeing...
- After a year of zero contact from ED I rec'd an email from her talking about her "wonderful therapist" who told her to end all contact with me and how she can't trust me because I'm too controlling. Of course this is a joke. I encouraged her to go...
- One year, since 20 year old ED, cut all ties. To make things worse, my cell phone was lost/stolen last weekend. The worst part was losing all my old saved voice mail with her singing happy birthday to me, all the sweet loving messages and text,...
- I had to run by Lowes to pick up something and I ask a young clerk, about my ED age if the could help me find something. She said, "first let me wish you a happy mother's day". I broke down and cried. How can strangers be kinder than our own...
- I dreamt about ED all night. I kept waking up and everytime I fell back to sleep as was dreaming about ds, having fun together, like we did until last year. Today, the deams are nightmares that haunt me. It's been 10 months since my 20 yr old...
- I surprising got a reply. But the saddest part is she has gone from, " I can't talk to you now" to I've moved and your crazy". The pain only worsens :( I learned in therapy this week. "Children are so hard on today’s parents because they...
- Hi friends,My sister bought me a book, which I highly recommend. "When Parents Hurt" by Dr. Joshua Coleman. I have been working through his weekly teleseminars too. He too was estranged by his daughter and I am finding the lectures benefitial. I...
- Hi,I'm glad to find this group. I am a single mom and my 20 yr old daughter has not spoken to me since June 2012. As you all know, the pain is unbearable. She is across the country from me. I'll share my story later, as it is so painful, I have a...