drunCo

tired of silly things. today would be a day where i would get shitfaced, an oblivion day. so that means tomorrow would be a hangover day. tonight would amount to nothing, no reading, no remembering.

    what to do? how to live? when does being assertive, proactive, confident, become being an asshole, egoist, self-centered?i know ineed to quit my job. for what reason? what to do? i don't want...

    i came the closest today to telling someone i work with that i think i'm an alcoholic. got pretty much the usual. what do you mean you don't drink? i guess, more the expected.     then a...

   i know that even as wll as i could hold my liquor, how well i could function on the stuff, no matter how well i could bounce back the next day, i can not do the things i want, drunk. i can not...

i have seen the black waves roll in from the sea,under skies with no light to shine the water. i have heard the roar of froth crashing on the sandsto roll back back with a frightening sound.i saw...

     who am i?     what do you think? am i any good at this writing crap? i think i can turn a good phrase, but do i have anything to say? is it all just questions? a child in God's world...

   hung out with a recovering heroin addict i work with, he's a year in methodone treatment, and stil has pains and cravings. what's in the future wqith drink? not that we'll ever be togethe again,...

a man asked us to imagine, if we could.i wish, on windy days, that i would,with storm wrought breezesflying in from the seas,his dreams were not misunderstood.as those fical, grey winds blow,i...

if you worry about something, you give it power it didn't have to begin with. what's to be afraid of? when something happens we'll deal with it.

welp, we're in for some weathah, a classic nor'eastah meetin' a classic sou'westah. oh well, hope this shack holds up. don't know if i should evac the monsters, or even where to. i can't pay the...

kind of hate this thing, the memory of battles lost, is that too melodramatic? fabulous! anyway, despite my back hurting, today was a good day, forward moving, 'septin' i didn't do any cleaning up...

alright, this is going to be sloppy, because i just woke. not that my other entries aren't sloppy, or that i was when i wrote them, but this one might stand out.     Einstien was wrong, ish, when...

   problems are small. defeatable. i'm big and furry. defeatable, but, not if i take control of stuff. like the world, my bladder, the remote. temptation is an excuse. because it's there is no...

couldn't buy strings, had to stay late at work, dog tired boss, got lots done for tomorrow, hope it ain't busy tonight, i'll be able to take it easy tomorrow, well, there it goes, it's gonna be busy...