oldmarrieguy

well, i's gone a while, but today I gave a bj. Can't seem to break the cycle. I'll go a month or so. 

had a bj on thanksgiving week, then 5 weeks, now another this morning. getting, not giving. going to try and start the new year fresh, see how far i can get.

still feeling a little depressed. no urges, still good that way, but dissatisfied with retirement. I'm doing the same things as before I retired.

feeling a little depressed, retirement not what I wanted it to be. no travel, wife doesn't like to do anything.. 30 days, no regression. tempted over the weekend, but nothing.

still feeling great, no urges at all. Still trying to stay away from know triggers. Not letting my wife upset me.

feeling good. have an erection almost every morning, no urges at all. trying to stay away from my known triggers.

24 days since last encounter, no urges at all. feeling pretty good

a little depressed today, seems like my wife and I never want the same things. I've thought about divorce, not sure if it would be good or not. 

still feeling good, no porn for almost three weeks. have masturbated twice, but no bi thoughts, or porn. managed to get pretty erect the second time with no outside stimulation, progress I guess. 

feeling more tempted the last two days, but no relapse. still try to use the STAR response, works so far.18 days since last problem, longest time without for quite a while!

another weekend, no relapse. A friend was in town to visit, we always talk about sex, getting laid. he is on several match sites, as he is divorced. I saw the name of one, and am temted to look, but...

had some negative thoughts last night, but was able to refocus, think about something else. it worked well. I remembered that I make the decisions, can choose what to do, and I changed my thought...

felt an urge last night, but resisted. am not thinking of sex all the time, that is good. I wish I could get aroused, seems like I'll never get another hard on! no cl, no porn for eleven days.

just realized I've been entering all wrong.. oh well

made it through a week at work, which is where I have my issues, without any problems.looking forard to the weekend.