nesshlosthope

About Me

i always thought i could take on anything mentally and physically since i was a little girl.being a mom?no problem!To 3 healthy boys?psshh easy!becoming a wife to a man who adores me with unconditional love?are you kidding?!never would i thought a person like me could deserve all this, i didnt ask for much in life.i perferred the simple things in life, i didnt care what happened next in life.As long as my family didnt change and were happy, i can deal with the ups and downs of life.but no one ever tells you just how low, then lower, then deep, then dark life can get.my thoughts turned to sadness anger uncontrollable crying, physical anger, self harm, sucidal thoughts then one night i got a call that a family member who i grew up with all my life hung himself.after that i\'ve been an emotional mess, one day i tell myself suck it up, no more boo hoos.the next i wonder how can the ones i love let a person who is ugly on the inside be in their lives, why am i alive....