jlou47

yesterday was rough and at the present I ll just leave it at that. Today I am taking it one moment at a time. Not alot to say right now. Just struggling with this disease. 

Wanted to gamble so bad this morning. It s my day off which explains it. God saved me big time. Credit card wouldn t work. Now I m off to church which was my original plan to begin with. Then food...

Weakness and temptation are all around me. I m patiently enduring until it passes. One second at a time. This is the time of the day when I am at my weakest. It s been six days but feels like six...

I feel alright this morning, alittle less impatient, but guarded. This is the feeling that brings on the desire to gamble. The mind starts to wander and gets out of focus. It s up to me to bring it...

I m feeling alittle angry and frustrated this morning. I m sure it s withdrawal looking for a reason to gamble. You know, life sucks, my job stinks etc.etc.etc.. These are the feelings I need to...

I start with the GA prayer each morning and ask God to let me live one moment at a time. I am powerless over this addiction but trust Jesus to fight this battle for me. Day 3 and still with the grace...

I m determined to start each day surrendering myself to God through Jesus Christ his son. I will seek each day His will for me and do it. I will forget about the past and all the losses and not worry...

The urges of gambling are so seductive. Your head gets filled with all kinds of new ways to gamble without losing. You forget about all the misery gambling caused. Then you get weak and are ready to...

It fasinates me how my emotions trigger the urges to gamble. Even when I get excited or anxious gambling is the first urge to hit me. I knew when I am bored or depressed that the urge rears its ugly...

There s a storm coming with about 18 in. of snow. Bored too death. Still haven t found a new activity to replace gambling. I ve been struggling but not gambling. That would only make things worse. I...

well, I madeit through my wife s anniversary ( the mass was Sunday). Hard to believe it s been one year. I was dealing with some anger Sat. and got into a shouting match with my daughter. We were...

I m dealing with my emotions well now that I m not gambling. I thank God everyday for this site and the strength to not gamble. It s certainly a blessing. I pray everyday and visit this site. I m...

Tomorrow I sign my refinancing paperwork that will save me some dough. I m off this weekend but have plenty of things to do. Mostly family get togethers. I think for the holidays I m just going to...

10 days gamble free. The urge still sneaks up but I have been able to stop it, with God s strength. One day at a time. Today I will not gamble.

yesterday was rough and at the present I ll just leave it at that. Today I am taking it one moment at a time. Not alot to say right now. Just struggling with this disease.