SearchingForSerenity

Today I turned 50 ... the big 5-0! It's all downhill from here ... as my son says "just like a snow tube going down a hill ... WEEEEE!" I decided to write today for two reasons, first as of today I...

Why can't I let go? Why do I keep try to make him understand my feelings? Why do I care when I know that he is incapable of having any real feelings? Everything in his world revolves around him and...

Two weeks from today I will be in Texas for the birth of my grandson (Caeseran is scheduled for March 16th). I will fly down and back and have four days to spend there. Later, during Spring Break, I...

It is so hard to understand how you can try so hard to help someone, to be there for them and love them with all your heart and then they screw up theirs lives and somehow it is all your fault. That...

I feel like they are never going ot get the meds right and that I am going to be stuck feeling like this forever ... I am so afraid to be alone, I cannot sleep and all I want to do is cry. They put...

I feel so very bad. All I want to do is cry. I cannot get into see the dr until Wednesday morning. None of the meds I have seem to be working this morning. I have not gotten neary enough sleep and I...

A week ago Tuesday my GP put me on Citalopram (generic version of Celexa). I immediately started feeling nauseous and anxious. On Thursday I called the nurse because it was so bad. She told me to try...

My ex stopped over this morning and basically told our son that he was not going to be at his game tonight and that he would not be seeing him for awhile. He said he was tired of him coming over...

Tonight I was faced with the very real possibility that after almost two years of sobriety  my ex-husband is back drinking. There have been suspicions over the last few weeks but nothing certain....

So Saturday I received a video text from my oldest daughter who is 25. It was a picture of a home pregnancy test showing "Pregnant". This should have been a happy thing but instead I had no idea how...

Today is my BF's birthday. I have not talked to him since yesterday at lunch. Normally we spend Tuesday nights together since my son is at his dads but last night I got a text saying "Had another bad...

Wow it is hard to believe it has been two years since Poppa died. I still miss him everyday but at least now I can think of him and not bust into tears. So much has happened in two years and I feel...

Why can't I let go? Why do I keep try to make him understand my feelings? Why do I care when I know that he is incapable of having any real feelings? Everything in his world revolves around him and...

Two weeks from today I will be in Texas for the birth of my grandson (Caeseran is scheduled for March 16th). I will fly down and back and have four days to spend there. Later, during Spring Break, I...

It is so hard to understand how you can try so hard to help someone, to be there for them and love them with all your heart and then they screw up theirs lives and somehow it is all your fault. That...