Work Stress
I think the reason I used to gamble so much was work stress.
I'm naturally a visionary type. That sounds a tad arrogant, but my strength is dreaming up ideas, working incredibly hard, and seeing them through to fruition. I've been like this since I was a high-achieving little kid. Along the way, I've managed to attract a highly hardworking team of talented individuals who have traits I don't, like attention to detail, financial prowess, organization (both in person and online), and design/photography/customer service skills I can't come close to claiming to have. I'm a lucky woman.
My business will do well into the six figures this year with five hardworking individuals here (including myself), but it's hard. Sometimes it's hard because there are things coming at me from all directions. Today was like that -- finances, office, media edits, invoices, debts, collections, etc. I delegate the best I can, but it's still stress from all directions, making sure it gets resolved even if I'm not directly handling it.
Other days, like yesterday, it's hard because there's monotony. The beginning of the business was all about persistence and throwing things at walls to come up with a viable business model, but now the business is all about consistency. Everyday is largely the same core tasks that need to be done, and sometimes I just don't want to do it. I want to run to the casino and pour my frustrations onto the table.
Instead of running to the casino today, I ran to the bookstore and found "Heart Thoughts" by Louise Hay. I'm reading a page: "I create a wonderful future now." It's true. If I can get through the stress and anguish and frustration and anxiety and fear and anger and boredom that all come with running a business -- and without running to the casino or something equally as destructive -- I know I am building something wonderful here for my and my family and my work team's future. It's just a matter of sticking it out. Doing what I have to do, each and every day. Going through the toil sober, if that makes any sense at all.
I need to learn to love myself and my life enough to think about the future I want to create for myself, my family, and my employees and invest in that, rather than the short-term pleasure that comes from the casino. I just need to learn how to cope with these negative emotions stone-cold sober.
I'm naturally a visionary type. That sounds a tad arrogant, but my strength is dreaming up ideas, working incredibly hard, and seeing them through to fruition. I've been like this since I was a high-achieving little kid. Along the way, I've managed to attract a highly hardworking team of talented individuals who have traits I don't, like attention to detail, financial prowess, organization (both in person and online), and design/photography/customer service skills I can't come close to claiming to have. I'm a lucky woman.
My business will do well into the six figures this year with five hardworking individuals here (including myself), but it's hard. Sometimes it's hard because there are things coming at me from all directions. Today was like that -- finances, office, media edits, invoices, debts, collections, etc. I delegate the best I can, but it's still stress from all directions, making sure it gets resolved even if I'm not directly handling it.
Other days, like yesterday, it's hard because there's monotony. The beginning of the business was all about persistence and throwing things at walls to come up with a viable business model, but now the business is all about consistency. Everyday is largely the same core tasks that need to be done, and sometimes I just don't want to do it. I want to run to the casino and pour my frustrations onto the table.
Instead of running to the casino today, I ran to the bookstore and found "Heart Thoughts" by Louise Hay. I'm reading a page: "I create a wonderful future now." It's true. If I can get through the stress and anguish and frustration and anxiety and fear and anger and boredom that all come with running a business -- and without running to the casino or something equally as destructive -- I know I am building something wonderful here for my and my family and my work team's future. It's just a matter of sticking it out. Doing what I have to do, each and every day. Going through the toil sober, if that makes any sense at all.
I need to learn to love myself and my life enough to think about the future I want to create for myself, my family, and my employees and invest in that, rather than the short-term pleasure that comes from the casino. I just need to learn how to cope with these negative emotions stone-cold sober.
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