whore, bitch, slut
i don't even take it to heart anymore when he calls me these things. i feel immune to it, just knowing that he is in a vulnerable state and wants to hurt me. i don't go numb, i just feel unaffected. i'm wondering if this is a healthy reaction? is it because i am burnt out by the name calling? and if so, is this a good kind of burnt out, where i have come to accept him for who he is and can still love him, or is it a sign that my tolerance is coming to an end and i am gonna burn out big time?
of course it's because i love and accept him. i just had to put it down in writing and look at it. i think sometimes his black and white perspective influences my own, and i forget about the grey areas and the full color spectrum. guess i'm doing ok. for now.
god, seriously, though, and don't tell him i said this, but what a fucking pain in the ass he can be sometimes.
of course it's because i love and accept him. i just had to put it down in writing and look at it. i think sometimes his black and white perspective influences my own, and i forget about the grey areas and the full color spectrum. guess i'm doing ok. for now.
god, seriously, though, and don't tell him i said this, but what a fucking pain in the ass he can be sometimes.
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