When will it get better?
I'm still having such a hard time dealing with Gene's death. I think about him every moment of everyday and miss him more now than before. Time isn't healing my wounds, it seems to just be making them more painful. I have no ambition to do anything I used to do. I sit and watch the same TV programs over and over again. I hate my job, it's so boring and I so not busy that I have too much time and not enough to do. Two goals-- get a new job and get out of the house more. Those are the things my son said I need to do and I know he is right. The job market just sucks right now. But I'm not going to give up, I'm going to keep looking and sending out resumes.
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Good for you, keep up the search.
I know what you mean. I find I\'m denying myself a lot of things I normally enjoy right now while I ride out the anxiety. I get a lot of compulsive thoughts, like when will I feel like myself again. I think it\'s part and parcel of what we\'re going through. Just know you\'re not alone in what you\'re feeling.. big hugs.