well ok

So today I am having my crafting session.  There are 6 girls that are def. coming and 5 that are maybes.  I'm not nervous at all, I'm really just hoping everything is cool and I click with some of these girls, and then can set up a routine where I regularly hang out and craft.  This ensures that I get work done.  I would ideally like to be sewing 3 or 4 times a week, maybe for 3 hours at a time.  If I made 4 products a week, that would be great.  I'm not going to launch my website until a month from now when I get paid, because that is when I will be able to afford a VPN for the computer and buy the domain name and other shit like that.  So if I just had 15 to 20 pieces to start my etsy store and then kept it going, I'll have inventory in no time.  

I had a dream last night that I found my motrobike, it had a fake license plate over the real license plate.  I put my key in and just drove away.  Someone had it parked outside a restaurant.  Maybe this is a good sign?  That I'm regrouping.  I really am amazed at my lack of desire to drink....it really feels ilke I hit a new level in life, where I've really understood some major things about myself and am willing to assume a new menality and lifestyle.  I'm really ready to travel for 3 months a year.  And that's do-able!  I want to go to India soon, and also I want to go to Cambodia perhaps, to the beach.  And in 10 months I want to visit the states and also go down to Mexico.  For the rest of my life I want to travel many months out of the year.  I'm in a stage where I am setting that up.  

Also when I get paid, I am going to get a tattoo on my hand, of a morning glory flower, chamomille flower, poppy flower and datura flower.....i have an infinity symbol on my wrist that i've had 12 years now, but i want to turn it into a vine and have these flowers stemming out of it....delicate though.....so i need to find the right artist.  I've been wanting more tattoos for over a decade but i don't want tattoos just for the hell of it.  I've thought about it for so long and finally i found the design i want for my back....its a male and female sphinx facing each other with wings outstretched.  I'm going ot get this on the top half of my back, with the their wings sperad onto my shoulder blades .  I've never been so sure before, I love this design I found.  Yes, a lot of people have tattoos, and yes, i'm scared teh artist with fuck it up, but i want some.  adornment like this, when thoughtful, is a consecration of the human body i believe. 

ok, so i'm drinking my coffee right now, but i'm about to go out and pick up some nuts and fruits to snack on when the girls come, and then i'm gonna clean my bathroom and kitchen really well when i come back.  hopefully i'll have time to do a quick yoga session before they come.  Also need to get a speaker for my computer because I just bought a really cool cat speaker like a month ago and it broke then i took it to the shop to fix it and it still didn't work.  fucking hate that shit.....low quality bullshit.  oh well.  

grateful:  grateful that i'm pushing myself past my comfort level by inviting these girls over to craft with me.  grateful that i still have a job teaching online and that it is so unobtrusive, flexible and easy.  grateful that i am in thailand with dreams that i wish to pursue. 

desire: i desire to not eat at night!  last night i got up to pee and then half asleep munched out on my lentils-rice-veggie dinner tha ti specifically put away in the fridge for the next day!  this habit really is insidious!!!! munching out in my sleep.  damn.  so i desire to kick that habit.  i also desire to make some new friends today that i *actually* like.   i desire to keep an open mind and an open heart.  

brags: i don't know, nothing really.  that i'm keeping my shit together and am an independent person with goals and aspirations and experience and knowledge.  :) 

<3 <3  ok, onward to glory!!!  aka cleaning the bathroom.  :p