Weird Feeling

Today was totally weird.

I actually had a good day - at work. 

I was having fun with my coworkers and even felt generous to buy them coffee. 

But I still have that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach when reality hits me. 

Its not everyday that I have a good day. 

Its not everyday that I laugh with others. 

Its not everyday that I can talk to people about stupid things - even though I work 5 days a week. 

Its everyday that I check my phone if someone texted me that day. 

Its everyday that I wish I can talk to someone about what happened in my day.

Its everyday that I wish I had my best friend back. 

Its everyday that I wish I had a good reason to live.