Wednesday that feels like Tuesday

I'm very sad today.  I know that I must not have meant anything to that young man for him to have treated me the way that he did.  I had been alone for so very long. Living with Steve, I had turned off that part of me for so long that I wasn't even sure I could be with anyone else.  I just never expected things to go the way they did.  For one brief moment I got a little taste of happiness but those things are not meant for people like me.  Always far too broken.  I am and always have been the glass half empty girl.  Steve keeps asking me if I have found a place.  I have not.  The company still has not given me an answer...and the other person's roommate did not move out so he's got a battle on his hands.  I hate waiting..Patience is so NOT one of my virtues.  I just want to be in my own hole so I can curl up and escape everything and daydream about that one moment.  Maybe it will hold me over another 15 years.