Waves
this is so draining. I'm being treated like I have the plague. Maybe T is doing it all right by not being close and being so cold hearted. I'm an idiot I guess because even though this is happening I still care and am still nice. I feel foolish. How can someone just turn it off so easily and act like they don't give a shit? I'm getting mad. Maybe I need to hold on to this anger shit because when I'm mad I'm not so ridiculously fragile. I'm sitting here on the couch as to not be in my bedroom again and T is at the other end smiling and laughing at this not so funny movie and I'm all like what the fuck happened and how did I get here. When will this end? I wish I felt myself because I am up and down and feel complacent. Ugh.. bed time at 9:23 pm? I suppose that's better than sitting here like a sitting duck. I sound bitter don't I? I'm so aggravated and my chest is tight.
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Realize this anxiety is only temporary and don't let him get to you which is his total goal. You're not some child's toy to be cast off and forgotten when the child finds a new distraction. You're stil you, the strong woman is still there. No battle from within that will only break you down into separate pieces, none left with your altogether strength. You're in control of you and that's all anyone can expect. Blessings Up and spread that shit around liberally. ;-)
Amen!!
You are strong. I don't know how people can split and live under the same roof. I understand why but I know I just couldn't do it. I'd go mad.
Have you tried therapy? It helped me. I also joined a divorce group. It was nice to talk to people in the same situation.
-HUGS-
Yes I am in therapy, just started! I'm hoping it keeps my head above water and my eyes focused on moving forward.. just wish my heart could learn, it's so painful and I hurt bad.