Voices
I just got out of the hospital a couple of days ago. I've been experiencing auditory hallucinations off and on since I was four years old. I'm currently on two antipsychotic medicines, Clozapine and Zyprexa. Although I'm on pretty strong medications, I still hear voices sometimes. It's hard to describe what it's like when I hear them. It's mostly just negative stuff about the people around me or myself.
When I was young, 18 years old, my pdoc put me on Tofranil and Navane after a suicide attempt. I got a job as caregiver of an elderly man who had a son-in-law who was a lay minister and shared some Christian tracts with me. My first experience with Jesus was when I was 11 years old and attending a local Baptist church. My 14-year-old sister dared me to go up for the altar call at the end of the morning service. The pastor's wife led me in a prayer to receive Jesus as my Lord and Savior, but I didn't actively serve Him until I was 20 years old and working as a caregiver for an elderly Christian lady. At the time, I'd done something I wouldn't dare do today: stopping my psych medications. Fortunately I didn't become psychotic.
Today, a good day for me is one in which I don't hear voices, or if I do hear them, am able to "talk back to" them.
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Was it accepting the Lord Jesus Christ as your personal saviour that jolted you to stop the psych meds for that short time?
Yes. I was 18 years old, and knew very little about psych meds, their side effects, the risks of stopping them, etc. The Lord has always been merciful to me. But as I got older, I started having some problems and finally consented to medication again.