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It took a lot for me to do this but I called my parents to ask if they can take me to the ER tonight. For two days all I could think about was cutting and today I seriously started thinking of suicide. Im not safe anymore. When I got home from work I laid down due to a headache and just feeling like overall shit. I woke up and I couldn't take it anymore, I started cutting and with each cut I thought of dying. Fortunately none of the cuts were too deep but they were getting worse with each one. Don't know if I will get admitted or not. So, if you all don't hear from me for a little while that means Im in the hospital. Thank you all for all your support, words of encouragement and understanding. Im really hurting and i have to try something else. Wish me luck.

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sadiegirl13
sadiegirl13

I\'m so proud of you Pagan. You have all of my support, no matter what happens tonight regarding admission. Love & gentle hugs
joneszy93
joneszy93

I\'m so proud of you too, Pagan. I know this was a huge deal for you, but I\'m glad that you made this decision. Ditto with what Sadie said, you have my support as well. Sending love and gentle hugs your way.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Huge hug of comfort for you and a blessing sweetie... I think you\'ve made a good choice...xo
malibumark
malibumark

I am so sorry you\'re struggling Pagan. Sending you my best wishes for strength and support. You\'re an awesome guy. Sending healing wishes.
MayB
MayB

Good for you Pagan! Hoping for the best possible outcome... That you get in and you get everything that you need to feel better!
rubyblue
rubyblue

oh Pagan I\'m sorry I\'m late to this... I hope you are getting that which you need to feel safe and well xx
spacepony
spacepony

Pagan, I\'m sorry to be late. Like op, I hope you are getting what you need and feeling better. Gentle hugs. You\'re missed...
RichieD
RichieD

I\'m having some issues with self-harming too. I hope you can get this under control...I know how hard that can be.
SensitiveHoboLady
SensitiveHoboLady

Thinking of you and hoping you are coping as best you can with steps towards some helpful support.
darkenedheart
darkenedheart

Glad you reached out for help to keep you safe. Your emotional pain must be so severe to attack yourself in such a painful way. Sorry I have been missing in action. Not doing too well myself. I hope your absence means you are in hospital and they are being understanding and caring for you. Hugs