Tuesday

Not off to a good start today.  Just finished packing my lunch when he came out from getting ready.  I start to leave the room and he steps in front of me and says i'm trying to say goodbye to you.  He planned crock pot salsa chicken for tonight so I just said..are we not having the chicken tonight or did you want me to start it?  He says oh shit and gets that together.  When he's done and starts to go again, I say now are you going to heat up your breakfast to take with you?  He gets pissed and says he doesn't fucking care and doesn't feel good and I just don't seem to understand.  ..Umm...yep, I understand.  You are probably hung over and trying not to let me know and work is your entire life and the only thing on your mind..yep..covered that already.  I'm horrible for caring and wanting to make sure he eats and giving him the inquisition...yep covered that too.  I just go down the hall to get ready.  He yells love you as he's walking out.  Stupid.  I finally get myself back to peaceful and am looking forward to listening to some new music I loaded on my phone.  I am still really loving my new car and enjoying that I can listen to the music on my phone while it's still in my back pocket.  My phone rings while I am driving...yes still loving that I can take calls in the car also...it is illegal here to have your phone in your hand while driving.  It's one of the new guys they just hired in construction.  The dumbass forgot his password so someone gave him my personal cell and he's calling me at 6:45 in the morning to tell me he forgot his password.  Now I am irritated again...FML.  I am hourly and they stopped paying the stipend on my personal phone so I don't take calls outside of work.  Guess I should have paid attention to the caller id before I hit answer, LOL. 

I can't turn my neck at all now.  It has been bothering me on and off for weeks.  I'm sure bending over my ipad each night doing my jigsaw puzzles is not helping. This brings back the thoughts that I am on borrowed time.  If I am ever going to ride again, If I am ever going to have horses again, it needs to be soon.  Who knows what is going to happen with these rods in my back as I get older.  I already have a permanent crunching in my neck. I need to get back on an exercise program of some kind and get stronger..that will make it somewhat better.  I was thinking of finding someone to do massage but think how close I am on money this week and decide to just suck it up and deal.