Tryin to hang on

Looking at these four walls, its making feel like I am going crazy. There was a time that I had no time for myself but now I have nothing but time. I am so depressed and have anxiety, it funny you can try to find time, just to lay around the house and now you have a chance but your depressed so you can not even enjoy the time. Ain't that a "B". My best friend keeps telling it seem that your getting better but if she really new how I felt it would just make her upset. So I fake how I feel. I wish I could disappear!