truth is painful

Well today I come in and learn that yet another SW can't cover their oncall,  I am sick when I don't have to do oncall forever that month people who are asked to do the same thing I was asked to do the month before can't do it.  Well I'm not doing thiers and mine too.  Plus I'm having surgery to remove what is most likely lymphoma from my chest just above my heart.  Well I start complaining about everyone trying to get out of their oncall.  I complain first to Linda then to Melissa C.  Later LInda comes and tells me the reason Christmas weekend isn't covered is because Becky got a job somewhere else.  I was happy for her, but I still don't want to the the oncall.  Well then TEam II whom I have happily been removed from are all going out to lunch and in front of me skinny bitch who I thought was my friend is praising Becky for being a bitch.  Being a Bitch about what? about the fact that I was complaining about oncall being up in the air again?  behind my back?  How is that being a bitch,  that's being a fucking coward saying shit behind my back if that is what is going on.  Last time they all went out to lunch they were giving me the cold shoulder like I was some kind of leper too.  I haven't done anything to any of those self centered bitches, but I might just give them a reason to be bitchy.  We'll go into that when I'm not on my gov computer.  They walk around shaking their asses and holding their heads up like they are just the baddest thing that ever happened to Wilkes Co DSS.  They are Kissing everyone else's ass but mine.  Fuck them, fucking empty shades.  walking is happening, but nothing is there doing the walking, ass shaking is happening, but there's nothing there shaking the ass.  what exactly are they trying to attract?