Thought I was ready

Had the day off today and decided to try and clean up some more of Gene's things.  He has a lot of coats that I thought would be useful for someone this time of year.  Turned out to be a big mistake.  Thought I was ready, but I wasn't.  I got some stuff packed up and then totally lost it.  I cried for an hour after I was done.  But I did it.  Now I can't go back downstairs because it's just too hard.  I'm going to have to get my son to get rid of the box of coats and clothes I packed up.  I can't even look at them right now.  Another step back after 1 year and 7 months of Gene being gone.